LiveAboveIt
23-04-16, 22:53
Still struggling with anxiety over pretty much everything. It feels like my mind is STILL overreacting to all things that would normally induce a small worry, it's treated as an epidemic with the way I immediately feel panic to just thoughts alone.
It drives me crazy and I can't figure out how to eliminate this problem or fix it. It's to the point now that anything I have a thought geared towards anxiety or anything anxious, I feel an immediate fear response. This lasts all day it seems like, with brief respite. Sometimes talking to someone will accidentally distract me away from it, but I can't distract myself on purpose.. And when I am idle, my thought patterns immediately turn negative and fearful. It's exhausting trying to stay distracted all day.
My thoughts immediately start as "I can't stop worrying about this or thinking about this. It's okay just be okay with the thoughts and they will pass. Are you sure? Are you actually having this these thoughts or is your brain racing because of something that the drug did? No, it's just normal anxiety. But I can't stop thinking about this. Why is everything a fear? Why are all of my thoughts causing fear and discomfort, even just these thoughts? It's just anxiety. Yeah, but it's still really uncomfortable. How am I supposed to live like this?"
It goes on and on from there, until something distracts me and resets the process. I've tried constant distraction, I've tried acceptance, I've tried ignoring. It seems like the thoughts continue regardless and the fear just strengthens with each thought which leaves me in a hole.
I have NO idea how to break this process. I've chalked it up to the fact that I'm just stuck in a really high anxiety state, could be my CNS is sensitive from withdrawal, but I don't know. I feel like if I could just lower the anxiety somehow, the thoughts wouldn't pack such a punch and wouldn't be so invasive-feeling.
It's the strangest feeling to have an awareness of the anxious thoughts and still have them even though you know they are just thoughts, and STILL be afraid of them. Totally feels like my brain is messed up.
I just need some reasurrance. Am I doing this right, will this pass eventually? Does Klonopin help with this sort of issue or are meds the only way?
Has ANYONE ever been in a place like this?
It drives me crazy and I can't figure out how to eliminate this problem or fix it. It's to the point now that anything I have a thought geared towards anxiety or anything anxious, I feel an immediate fear response. This lasts all day it seems like, with brief respite. Sometimes talking to someone will accidentally distract me away from it, but I can't distract myself on purpose.. And when I am idle, my thought patterns immediately turn negative and fearful. It's exhausting trying to stay distracted all day.
My thoughts immediately start as "I can't stop worrying about this or thinking about this. It's okay just be okay with the thoughts and they will pass. Are you sure? Are you actually having this these thoughts or is your brain racing because of something that the drug did? No, it's just normal anxiety. But I can't stop thinking about this. Why is everything a fear? Why are all of my thoughts causing fear and discomfort, even just these thoughts? It's just anxiety. Yeah, but it's still really uncomfortable. How am I supposed to live like this?"
It goes on and on from there, until something distracts me and resets the process. I've tried constant distraction, I've tried acceptance, I've tried ignoring. It seems like the thoughts continue regardless and the fear just strengthens with each thought which leaves me in a hole.
I have NO idea how to break this process. I've chalked it up to the fact that I'm just stuck in a really high anxiety state, could be my CNS is sensitive from withdrawal, but I don't know. I feel like if I could just lower the anxiety somehow, the thoughts wouldn't pack such a punch and wouldn't be so invasive-feeling.
It's the strangest feeling to have an awareness of the anxious thoughts and still have them even though you know they are just thoughts, and STILL be afraid of them. Totally feels like my brain is messed up.
I just need some reasurrance. Am I doing this right, will this pass eventually? Does Klonopin help with this sort of issue or are meds the only way?
Has ANYONE ever been in a place like this?