PaulWirral
24-04-16, 22:10
This will be the easiest 'introducing yourself' I will have undertaken in quite some time now!
My names Paul I'm 31 from Merseyside, UK. I'm one of 5 lads and live with one of them and my mother. I am currently undiagnosed but suspect from reading and researching IM DYING A HORRIBLE PAINFUL DEATH (the internet's a wonderful place)....No I think I have GAD.
I don't work at the moment and haven't for quite some time. At first I was a bit of a scally/tearaway and thought I was clever for bumming around not working. Then it became increasingly harder to get a job with no work experience and now I can't even stomach the thought of work as it makes me panic. In my head I'm desperate to work and make myself a better person and to try and fix myself. Just when it comes to actually doing it my mind goes into overdrive
I keep thinking I'm past it now and my life is over, no job, no girlfriend, overweight, dwindling family, getting old, and in general not a lot going for me. I have made a doctors appointment but bottled going to it, anyone have any tips for getting your ass out to make the first steps to fixing this? I haven't attempted or seriously thought about suicide but often in bad times think about how much easier it would be if I did.
The only positive thing I have in my life that's probably kept me from tipping over the edge is in my nieces eyes I'M GOD! I have a very special relationship with her, she can instantly stop any attack or bad feelings when she turns up. She really is a little ray of sunshine.
You will have to excuse my grammar and punctuation, I try my best!
There is so much more I could type here and tell you about myself but I feel like I've taken up enough of your time already with my ramblings.
I was in the middle of an attack when I found this place and read a few posts before signing up. Just those few posts filled with positivity and hope from replies brought me out of it! Kind of makes me realise this thing isn't the be all and end all!
Thank you x
My names Paul I'm 31 from Merseyside, UK. I'm one of 5 lads and live with one of them and my mother. I am currently undiagnosed but suspect from reading and researching IM DYING A HORRIBLE PAINFUL DEATH (the internet's a wonderful place)....No I think I have GAD.
I don't work at the moment and haven't for quite some time. At first I was a bit of a scally/tearaway and thought I was clever for bumming around not working. Then it became increasingly harder to get a job with no work experience and now I can't even stomach the thought of work as it makes me panic. In my head I'm desperate to work and make myself a better person and to try and fix myself. Just when it comes to actually doing it my mind goes into overdrive
I keep thinking I'm past it now and my life is over, no job, no girlfriend, overweight, dwindling family, getting old, and in general not a lot going for me. I have made a doctors appointment but bottled going to it, anyone have any tips for getting your ass out to make the first steps to fixing this? I haven't attempted or seriously thought about suicide but often in bad times think about how much easier it would be if I did.
The only positive thing I have in my life that's probably kept me from tipping over the edge is in my nieces eyes I'M GOD! I have a very special relationship with her, she can instantly stop any attack or bad feelings when she turns up. She really is a little ray of sunshine.
You will have to excuse my grammar and punctuation, I try my best!
There is so much more I could type here and tell you about myself but I feel like I've taken up enough of your time already with my ramblings.
I was in the middle of an attack when I found this place and read a few posts before signing up. Just those few posts filled with positivity and hope from replies brought me out of it! Kind of makes me realise this thing isn't the be all and end all!
Thank you x