supportneeded
25-04-16, 04:23
Hi all.
I once belived i was infected with hep b and hep c because slept with another man.
After numorus test i accepted the fact that i wasnt and moved on. After suffering with health anxiety about this i said i would never put myself in a sitiuation again.
Stupidly i did putting me and most importantly my girlfriends health at risk.
In 2014 i licked a mans penis and got his fluid on my tounge and then i stopped. instantly i was worried about hiv and then exactly two weeks after when i could of fell ill i did and hiv anxiety went thorugh the roof. I wasnt really ill with the flu but i felt achy and just rubbish.
I really struggled at this point as i needed to test for my health and more importantly my girlfriends.
I tested negative at 4 and 6 weeks with a lab based 4th generation test, to my supprise it was negative. I was so surprising it seemed so right but i moved on after my test as no antigen or antibodies was found.
Fast forward 4 months later i started with headaches on the left side of my head its such a strange pain and discomfort.
I had strange rashes and stuff and never thought of hiv.
It wasnt until june 2015 when i started having penile thrush and then everything clicked that it must be hiv
I tested again at the clinic at:
4 weeks
6week
8months
7months
9months
14months
16months all negative.
By this time it was march 2016. And i kept trying to move on and then came the most messed up eye problems ever
Eye floaters. Im not talking about small problems talking about chronice eye blobs and stringgy stuff its horrible.
I went to the doctors and had my wbc taken in october 2015 and my wbc had dropped
Again last weel my bloods taken again my wbc had dropped and my doctor doesnt seem bothered
I asked for a referal to an hiv specialist twice but he didnt bother
Its now i noticed white spots ony tonsils.
I am so depressed now
Im so depressed that i cheated on my girlfriend and possibly given her hiv
There is no other explination for it i cant sleep or eat pr anything.
What is the chance that me has no antibodies to hiv
:(
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---------- Post added at 04:23 ---------- Previous post was at 04:09 ----------
When i say Eye floaters i mean chronic eye problems.
I read somthing about cmv retinitis that is common in people with hiv. Its like a living nightmare.
It was in october 2015 when i broke down and told my girlfriend everything about me cheating with a man and i asked her to test but she flipped and said i was mental because by this time i had already tested 1 year after.
She keeps getting an infection in her tooth and i keep blaming myself thinking its hiv.
I want to tell her im so sorry so so so sorry the tests are crap i should of spent money on a viral load test
I once belived i was infected with hep b and hep c because slept with another man.
After numorus test i accepted the fact that i wasnt and moved on. After suffering with health anxiety about this i said i would never put myself in a sitiuation again.
Stupidly i did putting me and most importantly my girlfriends health at risk.
In 2014 i licked a mans penis and got his fluid on my tounge and then i stopped. instantly i was worried about hiv and then exactly two weeks after when i could of fell ill i did and hiv anxiety went thorugh the roof. I wasnt really ill with the flu but i felt achy and just rubbish.
I really struggled at this point as i needed to test for my health and more importantly my girlfriends.
I tested negative at 4 and 6 weeks with a lab based 4th generation test, to my supprise it was negative. I was so surprising it seemed so right but i moved on after my test as no antigen or antibodies was found.
Fast forward 4 months later i started with headaches on the left side of my head its such a strange pain and discomfort.
I had strange rashes and stuff and never thought of hiv.
It wasnt until june 2015 when i started having penile thrush and then everything clicked that it must be hiv
I tested again at the clinic at:
4 weeks
6week
8months
7months
9months
14months
16months all negative.
By this time it was march 2016. And i kept trying to move on and then came the most messed up eye problems ever
Eye floaters. Im not talking about small problems talking about chronice eye blobs and stringgy stuff its horrible.
I went to the doctors and had my wbc taken in october 2015 and my wbc had dropped
Again last weel my bloods taken again my wbc had dropped and my doctor doesnt seem bothered
I asked for a referal to an hiv specialist twice but he didnt bother
Its now i noticed white spots ony tonsils.
I am so depressed now
Im so depressed that i cheated on my girlfriend and possibly given her hiv
There is no other explination for it i cant sleep or eat pr anything.
What is the chance that me has no antibodies to hiv
:(
.
---------- Post added at 04:23 ---------- Previous post was at 04:09 ----------
When i say Eye floaters i mean chronic eye problems.
I read somthing about cmv retinitis that is common in people with hiv. Its like a living nightmare.
It was in october 2015 when i broke down and told my girlfriend everything about me cheating with a man and i asked her to test but she flipped and said i was mental because by this time i had already tested 1 year after.
She keeps getting an infection in her tooth and i keep blaming myself thinking its hiv.
I want to tell her im so sorry so so so sorry the tests are crap i should of spent money on a viral load test