elik
26-04-16, 19:15
So I've been doing really well in terms of being positive, having a get up be fo attitude etc, but the fear of the anxiety keeps me there. I find it impossible to move forward when I'm crippled by past thoughts that haunt me and new angles that refuel the fear of its not anxiety inducing enough. They're such stupid and irrational worries that I can't discuss with people and it makes me feel so separate and odd. I think I genuinely have to get my head round the fact that there'll always be this niggle of anxiety with me as I seem to have no control of thoughts and attaching emotion to them. I feel that having the same thought over and over means I'm weird and it is me and why I have had some of the same thoughts for years and years. It completely secludes me from life and keeps me in my head. It's petrifying and ruining/ruined my life.