molrol
03-05-16, 21:55
Hi all,
My partner and i currently rent a very cute but slightly shabby flat in Bristol, recently we decided to look for a new place to rent - as i am going back to uni - we wanted a house, to save some money and something a bit more in touch with nature. As such, i found a lovely two bedroom cottage in a village just outside the city. Its literally a 10 minute drive into town, 40 minute bike ride, its rural, cheaper than the flat and very pretty. We snapped it up and at first i was very excited imagining our new life in this home, until a few nights ago. I woke up at 2am with dread flowing through my body and the thought 'we are doing the wrong thing.' I didn't sleep again that night.
Since then, i literally cannot stop thinking about this move. I keep thinking about how much i like the flat we are currently in, we've made a lot of effort to make it look nice and everyone compliments it. We have two cats who are 100% safe from traffic and lovely neighbours we get on well with. I keep thinking about how busy the road outside the new house is - through road for commuters - and there are planes overhead quite a lot. I keep worrying about the cats getting hit by cars / attacked by other cats. I'm worrying about the effect of the planes overhead and i can't shake the feeling of doom i have. The negative 'you are making a huge mistake'
My friends keep saying if we don't like it we can move back, and yes technically we can but i would only want to live in this flat - its pet friendly, allowed to decorate etc.
I wish i could just relax, enjoy this new chapter and rationalise the fears i feel but i just can't. I feel agitated, tearful and like something is going to go very wrong.:wacko::wacko::wacko:
I wish we had never decided to move. It should feel like this.
My partner and i currently rent a very cute but slightly shabby flat in Bristol, recently we decided to look for a new place to rent - as i am going back to uni - we wanted a house, to save some money and something a bit more in touch with nature. As such, i found a lovely two bedroom cottage in a village just outside the city. Its literally a 10 minute drive into town, 40 minute bike ride, its rural, cheaper than the flat and very pretty. We snapped it up and at first i was very excited imagining our new life in this home, until a few nights ago. I woke up at 2am with dread flowing through my body and the thought 'we are doing the wrong thing.' I didn't sleep again that night.
Since then, i literally cannot stop thinking about this move. I keep thinking about how much i like the flat we are currently in, we've made a lot of effort to make it look nice and everyone compliments it. We have two cats who are 100% safe from traffic and lovely neighbours we get on well with. I keep thinking about how busy the road outside the new house is - through road for commuters - and there are planes overhead quite a lot. I keep worrying about the cats getting hit by cars / attacked by other cats. I'm worrying about the effect of the planes overhead and i can't shake the feeling of doom i have. The negative 'you are making a huge mistake'
My friends keep saying if we don't like it we can move back, and yes technically we can but i would only want to live in this flat - its pet friendly, allowed to decorate etc.
I wish i could just relax, enjoy this new chapter and rationalise the fears i feel but i just can't. I feel agitated, tearful and like something is going to go very wrong.:wacko::wacko::wacko:
I wish we had never decided to move. It should feel like this.