claire
04-05-16, 11:28
I have GAD and have just started CBT. I've had it a long time and over the years it's got so intense that just a couple of times in my panic I think 'what if I want to kill myself'?
Then I get really anxious trying to assess whether I actually do or whether that's actually how people feel when they do.
Once the panic has subsided or if I'm in a period of feeling ok (mine's very hormonal based so it comes and goes) I think how absurd it was to think that way.
Then I'll keep thinking 'why did I think that' and worry that I'm actually at risk.
I'm quite happy apart from the anxiety so it doesn't make sense.
Can someone make sense of this please? I haven't told my CBT professional as I'm worried they might take my children away from me or think I'm more ill than I am.
Thank you
---------- Post added at 11:28 ---------- Previous post was at 11:00 ----------
I'm now thinking maybe this is a type of intrusive thought, which I do suffer with. I hope it is anyway.
Then I get really anxious trying to assess whether I actually do or whether that's actually how people feel when they do.
Once the panic has subsided or if I'm in a period of feeling ok (mine's very hormonal based so it comes and goes) I think how absurd it was to think that way.
Then I'll keep thinking 'why did I think that' and worry that I'm actually at risk.
I'm quite happy apart from the anxiety so it doesn't make sense.
Can someone make sense of this please? I haven't told my CBT professional as I'm worried they might take my children away from me or think I'm more ill than I am.
Thank you
---------- Post added at 11:28 ---------- Previous post was at 11:00 ----------
I'm now thinking maybe this is a type of intrusive thought, which I do suffer with. I hope it is anyway.