Pinkranger89
04-05-16, 22:34
Hello.
I have just registered to NMP today. I have suffered with generalised anxiety since I was a girl and I'm now 26. Ever since I can remember I have also been afraid of being sick. As a grew older I realised it wasn't so much the act of being sick itself (as long as I am in private and in a safe place) but more the disabling nausea feeling and the thought of being sick in public.
So I have started to get really bad nausea panic attacks. I will start to feel sick (like every day) and then I will start to panic. It is literally stopping me from doing everything, and the worst thing is that I know it's all in my head. I have had some strange tummy issues over the last year where I have randomly woken up in the night and vomited, so I think this has triggered it off again.
In 2010 it got really bad and I would make myself sick before I went out just to get it out of my system, thinking that it would help. I would stick my fingers down my throat to induce it. My thoughts were that if I was sick at home I wouldn't be sick later.
So now the sick thing has returned and it is literally running my life right now. Everything I do is being affected by it. Driving has become a nightmare, I am always looking out for areas I can pull into just incase. Work is a nightmare. Public transport, even going into a supermarket.
Another thing I have noticed is that it gets worse with pressure. Any sort of pressure like time pressure. Say I know I have an appointment at 4, my mind will just say "hey, you hate disappointing people, wouldn't it be terrible if you were sick right now?" So then I would feel sick and so the panic attck would occur. I am constantly looking for a place to escape. Normal toilets won't even do now, unless they are secure and not a cubicle where no one can hear me.
Every day is a struggle right now. I am currently on Sertraline 50mg (just started and transferred over from citalopram) and I am waiting for CBT. I previously sought out private councelling which really helped but I couldn't afford to keep seeing her.
Can anyone else relate? Any tips etc? Xxx
I have just registered to NMP today. I have suffered with generalised anxiety since I was a girl and I'm now 26. Ever since I can remember I have also been afraid of being sick. As a grew older I realised it wasn't so much the act of being sick itself (as long as I am in private and in a safe place) but more the disabling nausea feeling and the thought of being sick in public.
So I have started to get really bad nausea panic attacks. I will start to feel sick (like every day) and then I will start to panic. It is literally stopping me from doing everything, and the worst thing is that I know it's all in my head. I have had some strange tummy issues over the last year where I have randomly woken up in the night and vomited, so I think this has triggered it off again.
In 2010 it got really bad and I would make myself sick before I went out just to get it out of my system, thinking that it would help. I would stick my fingers down my throat to induce it. My thoughts were that if I was sick at home I wouldn't be sick later.
So now the sick thing has returned and it is literally running my life right now. Everything I do is being affected by it. Driving has become a nightmare, I am always looking out for areas I can pull into just incase. Work is a nightmare. Public transport, even going into a supermarket.
Another thing I have noticed is that it gets worse with pressure. Any sort of pressure like time pressure. Say I know I have an appointment at 4, my mind will just say "hey, you hate disappointing people, wouldn't it be terrible if you were sick right now?" So then I would feel sick and so the panic attck would occur. I am constantly looking for a place to escape. Normal toilets won't even do now, unless they are secure and not a cubicle where no one can hear me.
Every day is a struggle right now. I am currently on Sertraline 50mg (just started and transferred over from citalopram) and I am waiting for CBT. I previously sought out private councelling which really helped but I couldn't afford to keep seeing her.
Can anyone else relate? Any tips etc? Xxx