LiveAboveIt
05-05-16, 00:43
During my 5 week stint on Citalopram, I completely lost my mind. I had highly increased anxiety, severe mental confusion and cognition issues, vision issues, and constant intrusive thoughts/worry. I felt like I was on another planet and could not control my thoughts at all, it was terrifying. I also had severe DP/DR everyday all day. I began to question reality and what was real, what mattered. My mind totally turned to pudding and I lost all confidence and faith in myself. This followed 4 weeks after discontinuing the Citalopram cold turkey.
During this period I lost my ability to cope and became suicidal, each hour was a struggle. I was finally put on 25mg Sertraline and .5mg Clonazepam twice daily. Today is Day 7 and I already notice massive improvement. I am no longer suicidal, the anxiety has reduced along with the constant DP/DR.
My mind is becoming more quiet and I am better able to control my thoughts. The intrusive thoughts are nearly gone now and are much more manageable.
My problem is I am CONSTANTLY worried about losing my mind now. I can feel it almost as if it happened an hour ago. It was so traumatic that I just can't seem to get over it and just thinking about it almost bring me right back to how I felt during that period. I'm afraid to do anything, because I'm afraid that my thoughts will overwhelm me again and I will lose control. I don't know how to work past this.
I plan on increasing the Sertraline to 50mg tomorrow and I hope that eventually the medication will help be get past this so that it becomes nothing more than a bad memory, but it's on my mind all the time and actually makes me feel as if I'm crazy. I still feel slightly out of it, but I feel normal when I'm distracted and not thinking about it.
Has anyone else had anything similar and did the medication help?
During this period I lost my ability to cope and became suicidal, each hour was a struggle. I was finally put on 25mg Sertraline and .5mg Clonazepam twice daily. Today is Day 7 and I already notice massive improvement. I am no longer suicidal, the anxiety has reduced along with the constant DP/DR.
My mind is becoming more quiet and I am better able to control my thoughts. The intrusive thoughts are nearly gone now and are much more manageable.
My problem is I am CONSTANTLY worried about losing my mind now. I can feel it almost as if it happened an hour ago. It was so traumatic that I just can't seem to get over it and just thinking about it almost bring me right back to how I felt during that period. I'm afraid to do anything, because I'm afraid that my thoughts will overwhelm me again and I will lose control. I don't know how to work past this.
I plan on increasing the Sertraline to 50mg tomorrow and I hope that eventually the medication will help be get past this so that it becomes nothing more than a bad memory, but it's on my mind all the time and actually makes me feel as if I'm crazy. I still feel slightly out of it, but I feel normal when I'm distracted and not thinking about it.
Has anyone else had anything similar and did the medication help?