StellaNova
05-05-16, 02:09
Everything scares me theses days. I feel like I should have hope and be positive about the future but it's so hard these days. I had a family member (2nd cousin) get diagnosed with muscular dystrophy this week and I cannot shake the uneasy feeling... It's not fair.
Also I can't help but worry about the genetics behind it as MD is an inherited rare disease, women are carriers. Since it was my cousins kid (our parents are sisters) I'm terrified now what that means for my future with my husband and future family.
I know this is anxiety talking.. It's genetics, it's already in DNA... It's out of my control, but it's consuming my thoughts. If I go to the doctor and get a carrier test I have to live with knowing it's a possibility even if it does t happen and idk if I want that worry, or just let life unfold. I could not even be at risk, I have no idea..... But his recent diagnoses rocked my world.. I wish I could find a cure for him it's not fair
Life is scary and I'm not feeling very hopeful ever anymore and for all I know I'm not a carrier and have the chances like anyone else... Who knows, just struck to close to home and having major health anxiety :(
Also I can't help but worry about the genetics behind it as MD is an inherited rare disease, women are carriers. Since it was my cousins kid (our parents are sisters) I'm terrified now what that means for my future with my husband and future family.
I know this is anxiety talking.. It's genetics, it's already in DNA... It's out of my control, but it's consuming my thoughts. If I go to the doctor and get a carrier test I have to live with knowing it's a possibility even if it does t happen and idk if I want that worry, or just let life unfold. I could not even be at risk, I have no idea..... But his recent diagnoses rocked my world.. I wish I could find a cure for him it's not fair
Life is scary and I'm not feeling very hopeful ever anymore and for all I know I'm not a carrier and have the chances like anyone else... Who knows, just struck to close to home and having major health anxiety :(