PanickyPolly
10-03-07, 21:13
I thought I was doing really well since I met my new friends and last night I even went out with them but today I got anxious to the point of crying abouttexting a guy and haven't heard back even though he seemed really keen, made the first move ect. I'm now thinking the worst. I then found out someone in work had gone ahead and completed a project I proposed myself first but was turne down for and that upset me but mainly I'm scared I'll never see this guy again. Also his friend is ill and I'm worried he's taken a turn for the worst. I'm so isolated...even though I saw those people last night I've only seen them twice and I don't see anyone regularly and live in my own. I feel terrible. Came home and wanted to either kill myself or self harm so I got on the phone to the samaritans. Am still here but don't particularly want to be.