Traceypo
15-05-16, 12:05
Hi all,
Can't believe how far I've come in a relatively short time, I say short compared to my years as a health anxiety sufferer.
I'm still not smoking, nearly a month without them, over 500 cigarettes not smoked and I didn't smoke at a social event last night. Did I want one? At times yes, but it certainly didn't ruin the evening and I've woken up today with my throat intact and not stinking.
Couch to 5k programme coming along OK, I'm not a natural runner or athlete but I'm a tryer so I'll persevere (spent a fortune on new exercise kit so not giving up!).
How did I get this far, well I realised that the only person who can help me recover is me, support is brilliant and helps you learn more about yourself but the hard work and effort needs to come from within. I can sit there and dwell on the fact I might have a heart attack, throat cancer, blood clot etc whilst smoking 20 cigarettes a day and not moving off the sofa, chances are I'd be my own self fulfilling prophecy if I kept that up! Or I can do the things that will improve my life chances, there's no guarantees in life but I'd rather know I'd given it my all.
I'm 95% recovered as no one will ever be anxiety free, that's an unachievable goal so never strive for that, being able to cope with anxiety is my aim and I'm certain I'm there.
Wishing you all luck in your journey.
Xxx
Can't believe how far I've come in a relatively short time, I say short compared to my years as a health anxiety sufferer.
I'm still not smoking, nearly a month without them, over 500 cigarettes not smoked and I didn't smoke at a social event last night. Did I want one? At times yes, but it certainly didn't ruin the evening and I've woken up today with my throat intact and not stinking.
Couch to 5k programme coming along OK, I'm not a natural runner or athlete but I'm a tryer so I'll persevere (spent a fortune on new exercise kit so not giving up!).
How did I get this far, well I realised that the only person who can help me recover is me, support is brilliant and helps you learn more about yourself but the hard work and effort needs to come from within. I can sit there and dwell on the fact I might have a heart attack, throat cancer, blood clot etc whilst smoking 20 cigarettes a day and not moving off the sofa, chances are I'd be my own self fulfilling prophecy if I kept that up! Or I can do the things that will improve my life chances, there's no guarantees in life but I'd rather know I'd given it my all.
I'm 95% recovered as no one will ever be anxiety free, that's an unachievable goal so never strive for that, being able to cope with anxiety is my aim and I'm certain I'm there.
Wishing you all luck in your journey.
Xxx