AVS17
24-05-16, 20:00
I've been diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety, Depression and OCD.
Since about the age of 11 I have struggled with obsessions and depression. After watching a medical documentary about breast cancer with my mother, I became absolutely convinced that I have breast cancer...this at the tender age of 11. Then at the age of 14 I was convinced that I have HIV, this would later become a regular fear/obsession. What I can't understand is the fact that I cannot accept the fact that eventhough all tests were negative, my brain just couldn't accept it...I'm always thinking something like "what if the laboratory made a mistake" etc.
When I turned 21 I was convinced that I wouldn't live to see 22. This was due to the fact that both my parents, were three children, and both lost the middle brother at the age of 21 in car accidents. Well with me being the middle child (I have 2 brothers) I came to the conclusion that I would not live to see 22.
I just turned 25.
Now I am convinced that I will not live to see 30. Why do I have this feeling? It causes severe anxiety and depression and every day is a struggle. Any advice would be really helpful, I am so scared!!
Since about the age of 11 I have struggled with obsessions and depression. After watching a medical documentary about breast cancer with my mother, I became absolutely convinced that I have breast cancer...this at the tender age of 11. Then at the age of 14 I was convinced that I have HIV, this would later become a regular fear/obsession. What I can't understand is the fact that I cannot accept the fact that eventhough all tests were negative, my brain just couldn't accept it...I'm always thinking something like "what if the laboratory made a mistake" etc.
When I turned 21 I was convinced that I wouldn't live to see 22. This was due to the fact that both my parents, were three children, and both lost the middle brother at the age of 21 in car accidents. Well with me being the middle child (I have 2 brothers) I came to the conclusion that I would not live to see 22.
I just turned 25.
Now I am convinced that I will not live to see 30. Why do I have this feeling? It causes severe anxiety and depression and every day is a struggle. Any advice would be really helpful, I am so scared!!