stars22
26-05-16, 04:15
I've just woken up to do the night feed well I woke up should I say at 2 I felt like my heart was thudding so I took my pulse I couldn't find it so I checked my app and it was 58 bpm I then got anxious as it's low and kept monitoring it its now 4.12 am I'm sat in tears waiting to die it's dropped to 48 bpm I'm not relaxed so for my heart to be this low is not normal a soon as I stand it goes up to 70-80 bpm but it's like laying down us killing me I'm so tiered too .
A article just came up about a young women dying three weeks after giving birth due to heart problems miss diagnosed she had the same symtoms as me dizziness and stomach pains I feel like Writting my family a note and ordering my own funeral I'm In such a state I can't cope with this anxiousness I never get to relax and I can't cope with actually been ill anymore I feel it's already over for me now
A article just came up about a young women dying three weeks after giving birth due to heart problems miss diagnosed she had the same symtoms as me dizziness and stomach pains I feel like Writting my family a note and ordering my own funeral I'm In such a state I can't cope with this anxiousness I never get to relax and I can't cope with actually been ill anymore I feel it's already over for me now