libby_LLL
29-05-16, 20:07
I am a 22 year old female, no prior health issues. My anxiety and depression strikes at random times in my life. I can be fine for years(4-5 years) and then it strikes, lasting for months. In 2015 it happened again for about 4 months and now it seems to be creeping up again. i experience panic attacks, crying and hyperventillating, cannot be alone, and i only want to be around my mom for some reason. I had never had urinary pain or frequency before in my life so this caused my anxiety and depression to happen again. i saw tons of doctors and a urology specialist, had a cystoscopy and countless pelvic exams. Nothing was wrong.
The symptoms went away for a while (a year almost) and i had zero anxiety, none at all. All of a sudden i get a burning that lasts for days, a high white blood cell count, no uti and my anxiety becomes crippling. The worse my panic attacks are, the worse my physical symptoms, especially at night. I fear the doctors are dumb, i have a weird incurable disease that came up out of nowhere and that doctors don't care, or either it's all inside my head. I have had every test done, and can't even speak of IC (urologist highly doubts this) and the thought of it sends me into panic for months, to the point where i lose so much weight an it affects me very badly. Why can i live years without this and all of a sudden depression and anxiety completely takes over my life? And why these symptoms? I am so happy with my life, and there has not been stress to set this off? I am terrified it will eventually affect my sex life, relationships, and college career.
The symptoms went away for a while (a year almost) and i had zero anxiety, none at all. All of a sudden i get a burning that lasts for days, a high white blood cell count, no uti and my anxiety becomes crippling. The worse my panic attacks are, the worse my physical symptoms, especially at night. I fear the doctors are dumb, i have a weird incurable disease that came up out of nowhere and that doctors don't care, or either it's all inside my head. I have had every test done, and can't even speak of IC (urologist highly doubts this) and the thought of it sends me into panic for months, to the point where i lose so much weight an it affects me very badly. Why can i live years without this and all of a sudden depression and anxiety completely takes over my life? And why these symptoms? I am so happy with my life, and there has not been stress to set this off? I am terrified it will eventually affect my sex life, relationships, and college career.