Sparkle1984
30-05-16, 20:10
Hi all, I have mostly been OK for the last 3 months or so, but in the last few days I've been feeling some of my anxiety come back again.
This may sound weird, but lately I keep getting the urge to ruminate about times in the past where I've been in danger, for example, times where I've nearly had an accident. One particular example which has been on my mind lately is when I crossed the road near work one lunchtime in March to go to the shops. It had always been a 1-way road so I only looked to the right before crossing. It looked clear so I stepped out into the road, but then I heard someone on the other side of the road call out something (I'm not sure what they said but it was as if they were trying to warn me about something). It was then that I noticed that there was a van coming towards me from the left, so I quickly stepped back to the kerb. Luckily I managed to step back before I was hit. It turned out that the road had just been changed to a 2-way street. To make it worse, the crossing is on a bend so I think it might be difficult for traffic to see if there's anyone trying to cross. A day or so later, signs were put up warning pedestrians to look both ways.
I felt really shaken for a while after that incident - thoughts kept running through my mind like "What if I had been hit? Could I nearly have been seriously injured or even killed?" It then leads on to me worrying about dying young and not having time to achieve my dreams in life. I didn't think about the incident much after the day that it happened, but for some reason it's been playing on my mind again over the last few days. During this bank holiday weekend my anxiety levels have been higher than they have been for the last few months (I had a really bad anxiety relapse in May last year, and I only really got over it properly about 3 months ago). I feel like I'm having a blip - I feel jittery, and bad thoughts keep running through my mind like the one I just mentioned. On Saturday I also felt a bit tight-chested. The anxiety isn't anywhere near as bad as it was last year, but it's still unpleasant. In the last few days I've also felt rather lethargic and that I can't be bothered to do much - for example I've been finding it difficult to keep up with my daily exercise and I've missed quite a lot of days of that lately. This morning I spent quite a lot of time in bed instead of doing things I enjoy.
Does anyone else worry about traumatic experiences from the past? I know it's pointless worrying about bad things which happened in the past and which can't be changed, but sometimes it's difficult to control it.
This may sound weird, but lately I keep getting the urge to ruminate about times in the past where I've been in danger, for example, times where I've nearly had an accident. One particular example which has been on my mind lately is when I crossed the road near work one lunchtime in March to go to the shops. It had always been a 1-way road so I only looked to the right before crossing. It looked clear so I stepped out into the road, but then I heard someone on the other side of the road call out something (I'm not sure what they said but it was as if they were trying to warn me about something). It was then that I noticed that there was a van coming towards me from the left, so I quickly stepped back to the kerb. Luckily I managed to step back before I was hit. It turned out that the road had just been changed to a 2-way street. To make it worse, the crossing is on a bend so I think it might be difficult for traffic to see if there's anyone trying to cross. A day or so later, signs were put up warning pedestrians to look both ways.
I felt really shaken for a while after that incident - thoughts kept running through my mind like "What if I had been hit? Could I nearly have been seriously injured or even killed?" It then leads on to me worrying about dying young and not having time to achieve my dreams in life. I didn't think about the incident much after the day that it happened, but for some reason it's been playing on my mind again over the last few days. During this bank holiday weekend my anxiety levels have been higher than they have been for the last few months (I had a really bad anxiety relapse in May last year, and I only really got over it properly about 3 months ago). I feel like I'm having a blip - I feel jittery, and bad thoughts keep running through my mind like the one I just mentioned. On Saturday I also felt a bit tight-chested. The anxiety isn't anywhere near as bad as it was last year, but it's still unpleasant. In the last few days I've also felt rather lethargic and that I can't be bothered to do much - for example I've been finding it difficult to keep up with my daily exercise and I've missed quite a lot of days of that lately. This morning I spent quite a lot of time in bed instead of doing things I enjoy.
Does anyone else worry about traumatic experiences from the past? I know it's pointless worrying about bad things which happened in the past and which can't be changed, but sometimes it's difficult to control it.