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Abeechx
04-06-16, 11:49
so....for the past month or so I keep waking up first thing in the morning with major panic attacks. I open my eyes look around my room and the thought just hits me, all I am is a pair of eyes that looks at stuff. I keep telling myself no I'm not I'm more than that. But I panic. I think I can't escape my sight and all I am is a human who looks around, I say things to myself like would I rather be blind then? Of course not. But it's like I've become hyperaware of my own eyesight and now everything looks weird and I feel unreal. I look around the room and it freaks me out how we are constantly looking as humans and out eyes never get tired. Then it's the whole what if starts...what if I didn't like to see? I'm stuck with it unless I close my eyes but soon I have to open them again. Am I going Crazy or what???? I feel like I am! I also think what am I??? Who am I?? I didn't ask to be put on this earth I'm just a pair of eyes looking around 24/7. Is it possible to be afraid or have a fear of your own eyesight?!!! I think I have!
I read on here that someone said they look down at there arms or catch a glimpse of there nose in there periferal vision and think I am truely trapped inside my body. Now I've started to believe that and I feel like I'm stuck inside this body with no escape. So here we are 2 months of batteling with this feeling all day it's
Utter terror. Please help me!!!!!

hanshan
04-06-16, 13:21
I can't help much except to say that you are not alone - it is the panic of existence and has been the subject of writers like Kafka and Jean-Paul Sartre. You could read Kafka's Metamorphosis or Sartre's Nausea to find feelings like yours.

viking111
07-06-16, 18:18
All of this is OCD as OCD can come in any shape or form, even convince us it is not OCD but us going crazy. That's the most interesting thing about it.
Just try to ignore it and remember it's OCD. Trust me, I've been trough similar problems.