anonandafraid
15-06-16, 09:31
Hello,
Sorry about the embarrassing problem. Here's a history of how I've got to this stage:
At the beginning of this year I started having severe health anxiety about my vision and anything different in my body whatsoever.
Beginning of April
Started to notice a slight reduction in the amount I ejaculate. Normally I would have masturbated at least 4-5 times a week. Tried again the next day and noticed a similar amount - very hard to tell if there was a reduction or not.
I spent April testing every couple of days and losing all of my enjoyment and sex drive.
May
I'm down to not doing it very much at all - once a week at a push and that was to test. Seeing a definite reduction now and noticing a jelly-like, congealed result each time. I've heard that semen does that though when your body is expecting your usual rhythm (excuse the pun) and mine was 4-5 times a week so I tried not to worry too much.
At this stage it was pretty much dribbling out instead of shooting like it used to. I put it down to stress, not being excited by it anymore and the congealed nature of it.
June
I had pleasurable experiences with my wife which produced more than I have been doing recently, shooting once again and everything. Still not sure if it's back to my previous amount, but it's a start I guess.
This morning: decided to test 2 days after those pleasurable experiences to give my body time to regenerate sperm, I drank plenty of water yesterday in case it was a dehydration thing. Didn't enjoy getting to climax at all as per, and produced one of my smallest amounts to date.
I tried masturbating last week to see what my volume was like, it was more than today, still less than I used to be able to and it almost felt like it was stuck and didn't want to come out, that I had to milk it out. (So sorry, this is wayy TMI). I reckoned that might have been the congealed nature of the semen currently.
I've been worrying about retrograde ejaculation as it seems the only causes are a nervous system malfunction or diabetes. Both of which TERRIFY me. I'm scared of going to the doctors about it in case he runs all sorts of tests that might reveal something sinister. I have no other symptoms:
* it doesn't hurt to pee
* there's no blood in my semen
* I'm not running to the toilet all the time
* I'm not seeing any symptoms of diabetes
* no lumps or anything that I've noticed
I'm terrified of it being something terrible. It surely can't be stress related as it's such a noticeable effect now. I'm frightened of getting it investigated because as a person with health anxiety I'm worried about all sorts of things coming up, operations, surgery, being told I left it too long and it's too late.
I'm so scared.
Update:
After masturbating an hour ago, I have since peed and noticed no sign of cloudiness in my urine. Concerned that means now that there's a blockage somewhere.
Sorry about the embarrassing problem. Here's a history of how I've got to this stage:
At the beginning of this year I started having severe health anxiety about my vision and anything different in my body whatsoever.
Beginning of April
Started to notice a slight reduction in the amount I ejaculate. Normally I would have masturbated at least 4-5 times a week. Tried again the next day and noticed a similar amount - very hard to tell if there was a reduction or not.
I spent April testing every couple of days and losing all of my enjoyment and sex drive.
May
I'm down to not doing it very much at all - once a week at a push and that was to test. Seeing a definite reduction now and noticing a jelly-like, congealed result each time. I've heard that semen does that though when your body is expecting your usual rhythm (excuse the pun) and mine was 4-5 times a week so I tried not to worry too much.
At this stage it was pretty much dribbling out instead of shooting like it used to. I put it down to stress, not being excited by it anymore and the congealed nature of it.
June
I had pleasurable experiences with my wife which produced more than I have been doing recently, shooting once again and everything. Still not sure if it's back to my previous amount, but it's a start I guess.
This morning: decided to test 2 days after those pleasurable experiences to give my body time to regenerate sperm, I drank plenty of water yesterday in case it was a dehydration thing. Didn't enjoy getting to climax at all as per, and produced one of my smallest amounts to date.
I tried masturbating last week to see what my volume was like, it was more than today, still less than I used to be able to and it almost felt like it was stuck and didn't want to come out, that I had to milk it out. (So sorry, this is wayy TMI). I reckoned that might have been the congealed nature of the semen currently.
I've been worrying about retrograde ejaculation as it seems the only causes are a nervous system malfunction or diabetes. Both of which TERRIFY me. I'm scared of going to the doctors about it in case he runs all sorts of tests that might reveal something sinister. I have no other symptoms:
* it doesn't hurt to pee
* there's no blood in my semen
* I'm not running to the toilet all the time
* I'm not seeing any symptoms of diabetes
* no lumps or anything that I've noticed
I'm terrified of it being something terrible. It surely can't be stress related as it's such a noticeable effect now. I'm frightened of getting it investigated because as a person with health anxiety I'm worried about all sorts of things coming up, operations, surgery, being told I left it too long and it's too late.
I'm so scared.
Update:
After masturbating an hour ago, I have since peed and noticed no sign of cloudiness in my urine. Concerned that means now that there's a blockage somewhere.