Under~The~Stars
15-03-07, 23:46
Hi folks,
Just needed to write all this down as have been feeling so anxious today, and I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep tonight so wanted to pass some time, and get any advice.
I have an appointment tomorrow to see my therapist, who I haven't seen for 3 months. The reason for that is I was getting too attached, and he wanted to show me that I would be ok without him. It was very tough, but I have managed! :)
I feel really anxious tonight, and when I'm really anxious it always goes to my stomach, and then I panic as I think there's something really wrong with my stomach! I know that it's sore because of the anxiety, but it's still trying to convince myself, as I always need reassurance as it's always at the back of my mind - "but what if it's something else". So exhausting! :weep:
Anyway, because I was attached to my therapist before, I'm really scared that I just go back and it happens again as I'm already feeling that I'm attached and I haven't even seen him yet! :weep: I want to put a barrier up so that I don't get attached, but don't know how or what I would do??
I have been waiting for this day for such a long time - it has been tough not seeing him. But I really wanted to go back with a different way of thinking about things. I feel I coped really well and didn't think about him too much during the 3 months :blush: However, since this day has been getting closer I've been feeling attached again :weep:
And now that it's the day before, I've been feeling so anxious about it that I've been considering not going. However, I think I need to go. It would be a step backwards if I didn't go. I'm just scared that tomorrow comes, and it's time for me to go, and I can't go as I'm too anxious. Whenever I'm too anxious about things I back out and don't go. How can I push myself to go?
Any advice guys?
I really hope I can do this, and the anxiety doesn't get the better of me! :blush:
Just needed to write all this down as have been feeling so anxious today, and I don't think I'm going to be able to sleep tonight so wanted to pass some time, and get any advice.
I have an appointment tomorrow to see my therapist, who I haven't seen for 3 months. The reason for that is I was getting too attached, and he wanted to show me that I would be ok without him. It was very tough, but I have managed! :)
I feel really anxious tonight, and when I'm really anxious it always goes to my stomach, and then I panic as I think there's something really wrong with my stomach! I know that it's sore because of the anxiety, but it's still trying to convince myself, as I always need reassurance as it's always at the back of my mind - "but what if it's something else". So exhausting! :weep:
Anyway, because I was attached to my therapist before, I'm really scared that I just go back and it happens again as I'm already feeling that I'm attached and I haven't even seen him yet! :weep: I want to put a barrier up so that I don't get attached, but don't know how or what I would do??
I have been waiting for this day for such a long time - it has been tough not seeing him. But I really wanted to go back with a different way of thinking about things. I feel I coped really well and didn't think about him too much during the 3 months :blush: However, since this day has been getting closer I've been feeling attached again :weep:
And now that it's the day before, I've been feeling so anxious about it that I've been considering not going. However, I think I need to go. It would be a step backwards if I didn't go. I'm just scared that tomorrow comes, and it's time for me to go, and I can't go as I'm too anxious. Whenever I'm too anxious about things I back out and don't go. How can I push myself to go?
Any advice guys?
I really hope I can do this, and the anxiety doesn't get the better of me! :blush: