Ellen70
16-03-07, 01:35
Hello everyone, my name is Eibhlin and I joined this site the other day. I am from County Limerick in Ireland and I am 36 years old. I had my first panic attack when I was 15 years old and have had about ten billion of them since then! And you know what? They NEVER become less terrifying, no matter how many you have had! Then again, if you are a member of this site and reading this, then you are well aware of that fact!
I am single, no children and live alone. I live in a rural area, in a small village, and was born and brought up nearby. I am not in a relationship, my last 'real' relationship was about five years ago.
I am too well acquainted with loneliness.
The things that make me 'mentally interesting' are agoraphobia, panic attacks, general anxiety disorder, depression and a little bit of ocd. I used to be housebound with agoraphobia but now have a 'comfort zone' of 5-10 miles from my home, depending on how good or bad I am feeling at any given time. I drive and that has given me great independence, the strange thing being that I can drive 5 miles from my home but I can't go for a 5 minutes walk from my home. The car gives me a sense of 'coverage' or something.
Been hospitalised about ten times over the last 20 years and have a bit of resentment and anger towards the way I was treated in hospital and towards the psychiatric service in general. My last time in hospital was about six years ago and that is a bit of a record for me! Recently I have been very, very near a breakdown and very near being in hospital again so I am terrified of losing all the progress I have made in handling my problems on my own.
I see a psychiatrist about once a month. The meds I am on are Quetiapine (for sleep), Setraline (coming off that as it doesn't benefit me), clonazepam and other tranquillisers.
I submit to tranquilliser and alcohol 'abuse' when my anxiety goes off the scale. I take Lorazepam and Xanax and pretty much any tranquilliser I can get my hands on when I feel really bad.
Tricyclic anti depressants work best for me and I have been going steadily downhill since my psychiatrist stopped prescribing Prothiaden (dothiepin) for me 15 months ago. SSRIs don't help me at all.
I have had ECT in the past but the only thing it did was make me lose my short term memory for a while. I used to see a great psychotherapist when I was working and could afford to see a therapist but I haven't been able to work for a while and have to rely on the shortcomings of the state health service now.
Money can't buy you happiness but it can buy you good therapy! :yesyes:
So there is my tuppence worth. Hope to make some good 'mentally interesting' friends on this site :D
I am single, no children and live alone. I live in a rural area, in a small village, and was born and brought up nearby. I am not in a relationship, my last 'real' relationship was about five years ago.
I am too well acquainted with loneliness.
The things that make me 'mentally interesting' are agoraphobia, panic attacks, general anxiety disorder, depression and a little bit of ocd. I used to be housebound with agoraphobia but now have a 'comfort zone' of 5-10 miles from my home, depending on how good or bad I am feeling at any given time. I drive and that has given me great independence, the strange thing being that I can drive 5 miles from my home but I can't go for a 5 minutes walk from my home. The car gives me a sense of 'coverage' or something.
Been hospitalised about ten times over the last 20 years and have a bit of resentment and anger towards the way I was treated in hospital and towards the psychiatric service in general. My last time in hospital was about six years ago and that is a bit of a record for me! Recently I have been very, very near a breakdown and very near being in hospital again so I am terrified of losing all the progress I have made in handling my problems on my own.
I see a psychiatrist about once a month. The meds I am on are Quetiapine (for sleep), Setraline (coming off that as it doesn't benefit me), clonazepam and other tranquillisers.
I submit to tranquilliser and alcohol 'abuse' when my anxiety goes off the scale. I take Lorazepam and Xanax and pretty much any tranquilliser I can get my hands on when I feel really bad.
Tricyclic anti depressants work best for me and I have been going steadily downhill since my psychiatrist stopped prescribing Prothiaden (dothiepin) for me 15 months ago. SSRIs don't help me at all.
I have had ECT in the past but the only thing it did was make me lose my short term memory for a while. I used to see a great psychotherapist when I was working and could afford to see a therapist but I haven't been able to work for a while and have to rely on the shortcomings of the state health service now.
Money can't buy you happiness but it can buy you good therapy! :yesyes:
So there is my tuppence worth. Hope to make some good 'mentally interesting' friends on this site :D