Kshitija Athavale
23-06-16, 21:09
Hello all...
I finally joined today after reading about NMP on the website of a solo female traveler.
I am a freelance German translator and work full time from home.
My husband and I also own a small-scale travel company, which we started just to share our passion for travel with others.
I also am an amateur trekker.
I know in my heart that I love to travel, see new places, meet new people. But recently [since 5-6 months], I have developed the tendency of getting anxiety before leaving for any tour, be it alone or with other travelers.
I think this is because of a particular incident that happened on a Himalayan trek I did last year. One of our group members died from heart failure during the trek. And this has affected me deeply.
I also suffer from homesickness and had to resign from a job and, in the second case, a training abroad just because I wanted to come home.
I find it difficult to detach myself emotionally from my husband and my cat [we have this beautiful male cat for the past five years and I worry about him subconsciously when I am not present at home to look after him].
And sometimes it is also not about my husband or the cat. I just want to be at home; I am ok if my husband has to travel instead of me. I do miss him. But it is still better to miss him while I am at home than to miss him while I am travelling and he is at home.
I particularly find it difficult to distract myself from these anxious thoughts. I keep returning to them no matter how hard I try not to.
I recently cancelled a well-planned trip with my best friend a few hours before we were supposed to board the flight and thus hurt her by giving her the feeling that I cancelled because I did not want to travel with her. I was on a very high dose of antibiotics because of a bacterial infection in my throat and I did not feel confident about taking a 10 day long trip immediately after a 15-20 day long illness.
I have observed that this anxiety is never there if I am travelling with my husband or someone from the family.
I try to confront these feelings by reading blogs of fellow travelers and feel inspired when I read how they face their anxiety issues.
That's all about me for the moment. Hoping to get better in handling these issues with the help of fellow NMP members. :)
I finally joined today after reading about NMP on the website of a solo female traveler.
I am a freelance German translator and work full time from home.
My husband and I also own a small-scale travel company, which we started just to share our passion for travel with others.
I also am an amateur trekker.
I know in my heart that I love to travel, see new places, meet new people. But recently [since 5-6 months], I have developed the tendency of getting anxiety before leaving for any tour, be it alone or with other travelers.
I think this is because of a particular incident that happened on a Himalayan trek I did last year. One of our group members died from heart failure during the trek. And this has affected me deeply.
I also suffer from homesickness and had to resign from a job and, in the second case, a training abroad just because I wanted to come home.
I find it difficult to detach myself emotionally from my husband and my cat [we have this beautiful male cat for the past five years and I worry about him subconsciously when I am not present at home to look after him].
And sometimes it is also not about my husband or the cat. I just want to be at home; I am ok if my husband has to travel instead of me. I do miss him. But it is still better to miss him while I am at home than to miss him while I am travelling and he is at home.
I particularly find it difficult to distract myself from these anxious thoughts. I keep returning to them no matter how hard I try not to.
I recently cancelled a well-planned trip with my best friend a few hours before we were supposed to board the flight and thus hurt her by giving her the feeling that I cancelled because I did not want to travel with her. I was on a very high dose of antibiotics because of a bacterial infection in my throat and I did not feel confident about taking a 10 day long trip immediately after a 15-20 day long illness.
I have observed that this anxiety is never there if I am travelling with my husband or someone from the family.
I try to confront these feelings by reading blogs of fellow travelers and feel inspired when I read how they face their anxiety issues.
That's all about me for the moment. Hoping to get better in handling these issues with the help of fellow NMP members. :)