char123
24-06-16, 00:46
Hi,
Firstly, ive not been diagnosed with pure O but feel like i show a lot of the symptoms and share the same recurring immoral thoughts.
Maybe for about a year now, on and off, ive been obsessively trying to decide whether or not im attracted to my brother. Honestly, its bugged me so much im afraid its going to ruin my life. So my first question is, is it weird to think that your brother is 'good looking' like but not attracted to him? Also, if i was attracted to him, i would not be obsessing over them right? I think i just need reassurance because im literally driving myself crazy. Ive talked to a family member about this and some of the other thoughts ( being a paedophile) and they have said that its clearly OCD because i literally have all of the symptoms- so why cant i believe this??
Like tonight the thought crossed my mind AGAIN and i had to look at the photos on the walls and see if i was attracted to him but then i was like 'hmm he is quite good looking' which freaks me out more because then im afraid I am in denial and i really am attracted to him. These thoughts cause distress and im just sick of them now, i want to cry ( and have cried) because im afraid theyre true and because of the fact that im wasting my life contemplating this crap.
If i was actually attracted to him, I wouldnt be overthinking it like this would I? So many questions but im so stressed out and confused I guess. Sometimes I think that me being dead would be so much easier but I really really really do not want to commit suicide- although im also afraid I'll do this one day too.
Ugh so much waffling now i'll stop, thanks for reading and please reply asap :)
Thanks
Firstly, ive not been diagnosed with pure O but feel like i show a lot of the symptoms and share the same recurring immoral thoughts.
Maybe for about a year now, on and off, ive been obsessively trying to decide whether or not im attracted to my brother. Honestly, its bugged me so much im afraid its going to ruin my life. So my first question is, is it weird to think that your brother is 'good looking' like but not attracted to him? Also, if i was attracted to him, i would not be obsessing over them right? I think i just need reassurance because im literally driving myself crazy. Ive talked to a family member about this and some of the other thoughts ( being a paedophile) and they have said that its clearly OCD because i literally have all of the symptoms- so why cant i believe this??
Like tonight the thought crossed my mind AGAIN and i had to look at the photos on the walls and see if i was attracted to him but then i was like 'hmm he is quite good looking' which freaks me out more because then im afraid I am in denial and i really am attracted to him. These thoughts cause distress and im just sick of them now, i want to cry ( and have cried) because im afraid theyre true and because of the fact that im wasting my life contemplating this crap.
If i was actually attracted to him, I wouldnt be overthinking it like this would I? So many questions but im so stressed out and confused I guess. Sometimes I think that me being dead would be so much easier but I really really really do not want to commit suicide- although im also afraid I'll do this one day too.
Ugh so much waffling now i'll stop, thanks for reading and please reply asap :)
Thanks