Irishgirl12
26-06-16, 22:06
Hi guys,
I have never been on this forum before but I suppose right now I am looking for some assurance and some people to chat to who know what I am going though.
I am 25 and when I was 19 one summer whilst away for a few months with friends got struck down by anxiety. Constant panic attacks and doom, depersonalization you name it. I eventually got put on Citalopram which after the initial side effects wore off within 6 weeks I was great. It really did 100% work for me and within about 2 months (which felt like forever) I got back to myself , finished uni and got a job.
Two years later (with little or no anxiety in between) I came off them (weaned with doctors orders) and was feeling fine. Naturally enough some things happened that lead me to get back on them about a year later and I have been on them since. I have been on 30mg for about 2.5 years now with B12 supplements , omega oil and general checking in and out of CBT for periods of time and practicing mindfulness.
Last year my Dad got cancer and I was his rock through it and coped very well and really did think that I did it properly and looked after myself. Two months about I also got a big new job ,a dream job in fact that I was over the moon with , financially stable with my boyfriend in our own place. However last week after returning from holidays I got home and got into our apartment and had a meltdown. Panic attacks and generalized anxiety 24/7 vomiting and generally just feeling miserable. My dad is still very sick which I am worried about but I am a mess.
I went to see my GP that recommended I go up to 40mg on citalopram for this bad patch and take xanax until that works - she is a great doctor. But even though i've been through this before right now I feel hopeless , I am in despair this is back and I feel terrible. I am trying to hold it together but I just want to cover my head and never get up. I am so confused how the 30mg let this happen?
Will the 40mg help me , I have been on it 5 days now. I am getting spiked anxiety and general nausea , dry lips and headaches all I know are side effects but I suppose I need some reassurance. I feel like my life has been ripped from me in a week. I dread going asleep at night to wake up and face another day of this.
Thanks for any replies x
I have never been on this forum before but I suppose right now I am looking for some assurance and some people to chat to who know what I am going though.
I am 25 and when I was 19 one summer whilst away for a few months with friends got struck down by anxiety. Constant panic attacks and doom, depersonalization you name it. I eventually got put on Citalopram which after the initial side effects wore off within 6 weeks I was great. It really did 100% work for me and within about 2 months (which felt like forever) I got back to myself , finished uni and got a job.
Two years later (with little or no anxiety in between) I came off them (weaned with doctors orders) and was feeling fine. Naturally enough some things happened that lead me to get back on them about a year later and I have been on them since. I have been on 30mg for about 2.5 years now with B12 supplements , omega oil and general checking in and out of CBT for periods of time and practicing mindfulness.
Last year my Dad got cancer and I was his rock through it and coped very well and really did think that I did it properly and looked after myself. Two months about I also got a big new job ,a dream job in fact that I was over the moon with , financially stable with my boyfriend in our own place. However last week after returning from holidays I got home and got into our apartment and had a meltdown. Panic attacks and generalized anxiety 24/7 vomiting and generally just feeling miserable. My dad is still very sick which I am worried about but I am a mess.
I went to see my GP that recommended I go up to 40mg on citalopram for this bad patch and take xanax until that works - she is a great doctor. But even though i've been through this before right now I feel hopeless , I am in despair this is back and I feel terrible. I am trying to hold it together but I just want to cover my head and never get up. I am so confused how the 30mg let this happen?
Will the 40mg help me , I have been on it 5 days now. I am getting spiked anxiety and general nausea , dry lips and headaches all I know are side effects but I suppose I need some reassurance. I feel like my life has been ripped from me in a week. I dread going asleep at night to wake up and face another day of this.
Thanks for any replies x