LiveAboveIt
01-07-16, 02:16
I cold turkeyed Effexor XR 37.5mg that I had been on for about 4 weeks at the request of my doctor, as he was switching me to Citalopram because he thought it would work better for my anxiety. Effexor XR is the only medication that I have taken that actually left me feeling good and has actually semi worked for my anxiety.
I had horrible physical withdrawals from the Effexor XR and bad startup anxiety from the Citalopram. I was on 20mg Citalopram for about 4 weeks and it left me in a very bad state. I had severe cognition impairment and memory issues, was slurring my words and just generally felt like I was on another planet. My thoughts were always racing and I felt almost dissociative from my thoughts.
I again was told to cold turkey the Citalopram and was told I was having a severe adverse reaction to it. I was off of it for about 4 weeks before I had a mental breakdown. At this point my anxiety was sky high and I was having severe intrusive/obsessive thoughts.
I was then put on Zoloft 25mg for a week, then upped to 50mg. I was on 50mg for about 4 weeks and was then upped to 100mg for 2 weeks and then upped again to 150mg. The Zoloft has done wonders for my mood, but hasn't touched my anxiety. I've been on it for a total of 9 weeks. Once again I feel really spaced out, my memory is moment to moment and very poor, and I just generally feel incredibly anxious for no reason at all and feel like I'm losing my mind.
The only thing keeping me partially sane is the .5mg Clonazepam that I was given to take PRN. I generally tend to take it once daily and it helps calm everything down. But ever since the Citalopram, I've been developing constant Pure O OCD symptoms including repeating thoughts, constant subvocalization of inner dialogue, automatically repeating what I or others have said during a conversation, but in my head, etc.
I was diagnosed with GAD, OCD Tendencies, and Major Depressive Disorder. I can't seem to find any medications that have managed to help me cope or manage this anxiety. Even when I'm feeling good, I'm plagued by thoughts and worry about the anxiety, I can't seem to dismiss it from my mind and it makes me feel like I'm batty and the fact that the Zoloft isn't touching my anxiety or OCD worries me that nothing will. It feels like the Zoloft just has me feeling like I'm not me and keeps me in an agitated state. Can't seem to relax at all.
Does anyone any advice or suggestions as to which medications I should try? I'm currently in therapy with a Psychologist for CBT, I'm active and social, but constantly struggling with severe anxiety and intrusive thoughts from the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to bed, but the anxiety is lessened at night a bit and mornings are the absolute worst.
Any help would be greatly appreciated, I feel stuck.
I had horrible physical withdrawals from the Effexor XR and bad startup anxiety from the Citalopram. I was on 20mg Citalopram for about 4 weeks and it left me in a very bad state. I had severe cognition impairment and memory issues, was slurring my words and just generally felt like I was on another planet. My thoughts were always racing and I felt almost dissociative from my thoughts.
I again was told to cold turkey the Citalopram and was told I was having a severe adverse reaction to it. I was off of it for about 4 weeks before I had a mental breakdown. At this point my anxiety was sky high and I was having severe intrusive/obsessive thoughts.
I was then put on Zoloft 25mg for a week, then upped to 50mg. I was on 50mg for about 4 weeks and was then upped to 100mg for 2 weeks and then upped again to 150mg. The Zoloft has done wonders for my mood, but hasn't touched my anxiety. I've been on it for a total of 9 weeks. Once again I feel really spaced out, my memory is moment to moment and very poor, and I just generally feel incredibly anxious for no reason at all and feel like I'm losing my mind.
The only thing keeping me partially sane is the .5mg Clonazepam that I was given to take PRN. I generally tend to take it once daily and it helps calm everything down. But ever since the Citalopram, I've been developing constant Pure O OCD symptoms including repeating thoughts, constant subvocalization of inner dialogue, automatically repeating what I or others have said during a conversation, but in my head, etc.
I was diagnosed with GAD, OCD Tendencies, and Major Depressive Disorder. I can't seem to find any medications that have managed to help me cope or manage this anxiety. Even when I'm feeling good, I'm plagued by thoughts and worry about the anxiety, I can't seem to dismiss it from my mind and it makes me feel like I'm batty and the fact that the Zoloft isn't touching my anxiety or OCD worries me that nothing will. It feels like the Zoloft just has me feeling like I'm not me and keeps me in an agitated state. Can't seem to relax at all.
Does anyone any advice or suggestions as to which medications I should try? I'm currently in therapy with a Psychologist for CBT, I'm active and social, but constantly struggling with severe anxiety and intrusive thoughts from the moment I wake up, to the moment I go to bed, but the anxiety is lessened at night a bit and mornings are the absolute worst.
Any help would be greatly appreciated, I feel stuck.