rina_bean
05-07-16, 12:16
Hi all,
I have not been on here for a while. But things have got a bit stressful for me lately and ignited my GAD ten fold. I feel like I am completely, hopelessly stuck in a vicious circle of anxiety at the moment and it's affecting me a great deal.
I am afraid, fear is holding me back all the time at the moment and is making me completely indecisive meaning I procrastinate profusely and end up feeling worse!
I know I need help, and I want to seek help, but I am AFRAID to get help! I am afraid of all the possible consequenses and outcomes.
The train of thought that goes on in my head:
"I think I need to see a counsellor to help me."
"But who will I choose, how will I know who's the right one? What if I pick the wrong one? etc"
"Ok I'll pick a few to start with, oh wait, this means I have to pick up the phone and talk to someone. Oh god! Talking to someone on the phone. What if I make an idiot out of myself? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I agree to something I don't want to"
"What if the phone isn't clean? What if I catch something from the phone?"
"Ok, I'll email instead..."
"What will I say in the email? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I agree to something I don't want to"
"It's probably best to do nothing and just wallow in all this anxiety instead."
And I am afraid of talking about all this stuff that is going on inside my head!
Help!
I have not been on here for a while. But things have got a bit stressful for me lately and ignited my GAD ten fold. I feel like I am completely, hopelessly stuck in a vicious circle of anxiety at the moment and it's affecting me a great deal.
I am afraid, fear is holding me back all the time at the moment and is making me completely indecisive meaning I procrastinate profusely and end up feeling worse!
I know I need help, and I want to seek help, but I am AFRAID to get help! I am afraid of all the possible consequenses and outcomes.
The train of thought that goes on in my head:
"I think I need to see a counsellor to help me."
"But who will I choose, how will I know who's the right one? What if I pick the wrong one? etc"
"Ok I'll pick a few to start with, oh wait, this means I have to pick up the phone and talk to someone. Oh god! Talking to someone on the phone. What if I make an idiot out of myself? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I agree to something I don't want to"
"What if the phone isn't clean? What if I catch something from the phone?"
"Ok, I'll email instead..."
"What will I say in the email? What if I say the wrong thing? What if I agree to something I don't want to"
"It's probably best to do nothing and just wallow in all this anxiety instead."
And I am afraid of talking about all this stuff that is going on inside my head!
Help!