Children_of_God
18-03-07, 13:26
Hey,
just wanted to express how I'm feeling a bit, hope that's ok.
I feel so low.
I have so much on my mind.
It's like I'm living at my parents, in a town I don't normally live in.
I love my parents alot, but we don't get on that well, and I find I'm getting stressed alot, and some times they say things that are so hurtful.
plus, I have a 4 year old sister, and she's great, but some times I just have so little patience for her.
and get really annoyed when she comes in my room and like moves all my stuff (stupid I know).
plus, it's like I just reeeallly wanna get back to my town where the rest of my family, friends, and boyfriend is, I miss them so much and am just so stressed being here.
But even then, when I do get back I'll be living on my own, and have never lived by myself, I'm TERRIFIED!
Also, I'm worrying about what will happen with me and my bloke.
He's moving away next year to go to uni. and I love him and don't know how I will cope with it, it's like I'm setting myself up for another heartbreak.
I get so stressed and deppressed alot and just really feel like hurting myself (I used to do it alot) and it's so hard not to.
I'm just so fed up of feeling like this and having anxiety, and not being able to go out, and relying on everyone else, and being dragged down by the anxiety and the people around me. I always wonder if I'll ever get better, and be normal, and feel like myself again and how long it will take.
I feel like I've been doing it for ages and it's wearing me down. Like I hardly have the strength any more because I'm just so mentally and emotionally exhausted. and I don't know how to go on like this or how to cope with it.
my emotions are like messed up, I cry so easily and I get really stressed out over the littlest things.
I don't want to be like this any more and I don't know how to cope!
sorry for the massive thingy.
if you read this then thanks so much.
I APPRECIATE IT. take care :)
just wanted to express how I'm feeling a bit, hope that's ok.
I feel so low.
I have so much on my mind.
It's like I'm living at my parents, in a town I don't normally live in.
I love my parents alot, but we don't get on that well, and I find I'm getting stressed alot, and some times they say things that are so hurtful.
plus, I have a 4 year old sister, and she's great, but some times I just have so little patience for her.
and get really annoyed when she comes in my room and like moves all my stuff (stupid I know).
plus, it's like I just reeeallly wanna get back to my town where the rest of my family, friends, and boyfriend is, I miss them so much and am just so stressed being here.
But even then, when I do get back I'll be living on my own, and have never lived by myself, I'm TERRIFIED!
Also, I'm worrying about what will happen with me and my bloke.
He's moving away next year to go to uni. and I love him and don't know how I will cope with it, it's like I'm setting myself up for another heartbreak.
I get so stressed and deppressed alot and just really feel like hurting myself (I used to do it alot) and it's so hard not to.
I'm just so fed up of feeling like this and having anxiety, and not being able to go out, and relying on everyone else, and being dragged down by the anxiety and the people around me. I always wonder if I'll ever get better, and be normal, and feel like myself again and how long it will take.
I feel like I've been doing it for ages and it's wearing me down. Like I hardly have the strength any more because I'm just so mentally and emotionally exhausted. and I don't know how to go on like this or how to cope with it.
my emotions are like messed up, I cry so easily and I get really stressed out over the littlest things.
I don't want to be like this any more and I don't know how to cope!
sorry for the massive thingy.
if you read this then thanks so much.
I APPRECIATE IT. take care :)