DisgracedAngel
08-07-16, 08:02
I am really tired (physically and mentally) about my health anxiety.
I've always been a bit of a hypochondriac but it's like since I turned 30 last year it went into overdrive. I've seen the doctor more times than I'd like to admit, although I am getting tests done for female issues. I can sit here and say it's nothing serious yet somehow I can still be convinced that it is. Like others here, I've had tumours and various cancers (in my mind).
My latest has been the last two days I stupidly looked up the symptoms for HIV/Aids and convinced myself that my stupidity ten years ago in my young and dumb days has caught up with me all because of a sudden white coated tongue. Too terrified to get a test, been married for only three months and scared of what would happen if anything was positive. I've not eaten or slept the past 24 hours because of this fear! Now my stomach feels funny, which can be another symptom, and it's just a really, really bad cycle I cannot seem to get out of.
My issue, other than the above, is that this time last week, I was happier, because this didn't even cross my mind. How do you resist staying away from Google?!
I've always been a bit of a hypochondriac but it's like since I turned 30 last year it went into overdrive. I've seen the doctor more times than I'd like to admit, although I am getting tests done for female issues. I can sit here and say it's nothing serious yet somehow I can still be convinced that it is. Like others here, I've had tumours and various cancers (in my mind).
My latest has been the last two days I stupidly looked up the symptoms for HIV/Aids and convinced myself that my stupidity ten years ago in my young and dumb days has caught up with me all because of a sudden white coated tongue. Too terrified to get a test, been married for only three months and scared of what would happen if anything was positive. I've not eaten or slept the past 24 hours because of this fear! Now my stomach feels funny, which can be another symptom, and it's just a really, really bad cycle I cannot seem to get out of.
My issue, other than the above, is that this time last week, I was happier, because this didn't even cross my mind. How do you resist staying away from Google?!