Lockey1995
09-07-16, 18:51
Hey,
I went to cbt on Monday got on well with the guy it was more of an introduction than anything getting details etc told him my problems. My next appointment is in a month and can't wait for it frankly in the next one he is going to discuss anxiety and coping methods to hopefully rid my self of it.
Anyway I've had this little I'd say bump on the top of my left testicle now for a bout a month and a half well noticed it could've been there for years i'd say maxiumum it's about 1mm it could've got a tiny, tiny bit bigger but nothing majorly noticeable it feels bigger at certain times of the day and sometimes sitting position, lying etc. probably even less than that and it's quit squishy and moveable if that means when you put your fingers over it and it moves like left and right a bit. Idk how you define movable.
When i push on it there's no pain and it doesn't even really feel raised or anything like i can push it right down and it doesn't feel raised it's softish certainly not hard. I can't work out whether it is on the epididymis or just near it when i do the self exam normal and after a show it varies. Like yesterday i lost it for about 30 seconds and couldn't find it all.
If i use my left hand on my testicle to exam and roll it i can feel it but when i use my right hand and do the exam slightly differently I sometimes barely feel it? and when i grip the epididymis you can sort of see the main body of the testicle I think underneath it it seems to be on the right side of the epididymis round the right and further to the back of the testicle i think? but it's definitely in the top portion of the testicle.
The bowel issue seems to have improved still getting incomplete evac every now and then but only went once yesterday i think the stress of this issue is still affecting my digestive system as I'm still subconciously worrying about stuff.
I'm still convinced i have something that will eventually kill me though and i still feel quite scared and depressed :( I just can't enjoy things like i used to
Cheers, Jack
I went to cbt on Monday got on well with the guy it was more of an introduction than anything getting details etc told him my problems. My next appointment is in a month and can't wait for it frankly in the next one he is going to discuss anxiety and coping methods to hopefully rid my self of it.
Anyway I've had this little I'd say bump on the top of my left testicle now for a bout a month and a half well noticed it could've been there for years i'd say maxiumum it's about 1mm it could've got a tiny, tiny bit bigger but nothing majorly noticeable it feels bigger at certain times of the day and sometimes sitting position, lying etc. probably even less than that and it's quit squishy and moveable if that means when you put your fingers over it and it moves like left and right a bit. Idk how you define movable.
When i push on it there's no pain and it doesn't even really feel raised or anything like i can push it right down and it doesn't feel raised it's softish certainly not hard. I can't work out whether it is on the epididymis or just near it when i do the self exam normal and after a show it varies. Like yesterday i lost it for about 30 seconds and couldn't find it all.
If i use my left hand on my testicle to exam and roll it i can feel it but when i use my right hand and do the exam slightly differently I sometimes barely feel it? and when i grip the epididymis you can sort of see the main body of the testicle I think underneath it it seems to be on the right side of the epididymis round the right and further to the back of the testicle i think? but it's definitely in the top portion of the testicle.
The bowel issue seems to have improved still getting incomplete evac every now and then but only went once yesterday i think the stress of this issue is still affecting my digestive system as I'm still subconciously worrying about stuff.
I'm still convinced i have something that will eventually kill me though and i still feel quite scared and depressed :( I just can't enjoy things like i used to
Cheers, Jack