Mel12
09-07-16, 20:47
Hello,
I'm an 18 year old female that's made a mistake!! Basically from the beginning... I was diagnosed with severe health anxiety about 5 months ago and I still very much struggle with it, physically and mentally. Moving on to the HIV part, I recently had sex with a guy that I barely knew and know nothing about his sexual history. The day after I asked him if he had any sti's just to make sure (I know I should have asked him before but it didn't cross my mind). After I asked he replied 'I've got HIV' and my stomach dropped, I was begging him to tell me he's joking but he spent the next 20 minutes convincing me he had it and it wasn't until I started crying he told me he was only joking but by then the idea was already far implanted in head and since he told me I've felt like I've had a fever, sore throat, ear ache and migraine and I'm 100% convinced I have HIV because we didn't use a condom and he ejaculated inside me. the day after I went to get PEP and I'm currently taking it just to be safe but I think it's really having an affect on my anxiety and making it worse and I just keep googling symptoms of HIV and everytime I read a new symptom I start to feel it but I don't know if the symptoms are just side effects of the PEP or even symptoms of anxiety. On top of that now I'm starting to question if I've got HIV from previous sexual partners as I never used a condom because I trusted all of them and knew exactly who they'd had sex with. I get the results back from my first HIV test in 3 days but that won't cover all my sexual partners as I was told the results may not be accurate before 3 months but I don't want to be this worried for another 3 months I feel like I'm going insane! Could anyone offer some reassurance please?:(
I'm an 18 year old female that's made a mistake!! Basically from the beginning... I was diagnosed with severe health anxiety about 5 months ago and I still very much struggle with it, physically and mentally. Moving on to the HIV part, I recently had sex with a guy that I barely knew and know nothing about his sexual history. The day after I asked him if he had any sti's just to make sure (I know I should have asked him before but it didn't cross my mind). After I asked he replied 'I've got HIV' and my stomach dropped, I was begging him to tell me he's joking but he spent the next 20 minutes convincing me he had it and it wasn't until I started crying he told me he was only joking but by then the idea was already far implanted in head and since he told me I've felt like I've had a fever, sore throat, ear ache and migraine and I'm 100% convinced I have HIV because we didn't use a condom and he ejaculated inside me. the day after I went to get PEP and I'm currently taking it just to be safe but I think it's really having an affect on my anxiety and making it worse and I just keep googling symptoms of HIV and everytime I read a new symptom I start to feel it but I don't know if the symptoms are just side effects of the PEP or even symptoms of anxiety. On top of that now I'm starting to question if I've got HIV from previous sexual partners as I never used a condom because I trusted all of them and knew exactly who they'd had sex with. I get the results back from my first HIV test in 3 days but that won't cover all my sexual partners as I was told the results may not be accurate before 3 months but I don't want to be this worried for another 3 months I feel like I'm going insane! Could anyone offer some reassurance please?:(