KatiePink
12-07-16, 16:23
I've not posted for a while now mainly because i had so much going on in my life but also because my constant symptom checking and googling disappeared! This is a long post just wanted to update people
So about 4-5 weeks ago i was suffering from bad health anxiety and had been going through a rough patch with it for about 6 months, signed off work on long term sick. During that time i did a CBT course and tried numerous things to get myself better, i was suffering from headaches, severe neck pain and stiffness, vision problems, jaw pain, twitching so on and so forth
Around 3 weeks ago my sister was induced early(I was a birthing partner), she had a high risk pregnancy towards the end because of a rare condition they picked up during a routine check which meant she couldn't go over 37weeks.
The hospital she was at was far away from home, i spent 3 days in the hospital and i can say they were probably the most worrying 3 days of my life! I had 10 hours sleep in total, no healthy foods or any of my usual comforts, on the 3rd day baby finally started to make a move, there were so many complications i couldn't begin to list them, it was immensely frightening at times even more so for somebody like me.
After all of the worry, and a lot of tears, i got to see my niece be born into the world and it was the most amazing experience of my life, going through such a wide range of emotions in such a short time and the overwhelming feeling of relief and happiness when she arrived safely is something i'll never forget.
Upon returning home and after a very long sleep! It occurred to me that during this time away, i hadn't experienced ANY of the usual problems i'd been having for the last 6 months, now surely if there was something WRONG with me physically, it wouldn't pause itself for three days to give me a break, i mean this was a very stressful and emotional time, and yet i physically felt the best i had felt in ages besides the tiredness.
This is what i put it down to
- Having something else to focus my attention on(albeit this wasn't a situation anyone wanted) it completely took over and i had not time to consider if i was potentially dying of a rare disease or a brain tumour.
- Being out of my comfort zone and a change in my routine, the way i was living every day was enabling my anxiety and all of my physical issues.
- Being more active, i walked more in those 3 days than i had in 6 months.
So after resting from the lack of sleep and food i told myself i was keeping this momentum up and not letting myself slip back in to old ways, and have since left my job after a lot of deliberating, i decided it was holding me back from moving forward with my life, although they were fantastic with me, i want a fresh start, i applied for a job that is something i've wanted to do for a long time, i had the first part of the interview process last week and the formal interview today!
I will hear back in 24-48 hours, even if i do not get this position i feel like i've took a huge step and restored some of my confidence just by putting myself out there, it was frightening but also liberating, i was choosing to do this and that felt good. I hope i haven't bored you all to sleep.. but that's my update, a positive one for a change!
:yahoo:
So about 4-5 weeks ago i was suffering from bad health anxiety and had been going through a rough patch with it for about 6 months, signed off work on long term sick. During that time i did a CBT course and tried numerous things to get myself better, i was suffering from headaches, severe neck pain and stiffness, vision problems, jaw pain, twitching so on and so forth
Around 3 weeks ago my sister was induced early(I was a birthing partner), she had a high risk pregnancy towards the end because of a rare condition they picked up during a routine check which meant she couldn't go over 37weeks.
The hospital she was at was far away from home, i spent 3 days in the hospital and i can say they were probably the most worrying 3 days of my life! I had 10 hours sleep in total, no healthy foods or any of my usual comforts, on the 3rd day baby finally started to make a move, there were so many complications i couldn't begin to list them, it was immensely frightening at times even more so for somebody like me.
After all of the worry, and a lot of tears, i got to see my niece be born into the world and it was the most amazing experience of my life, going through such a wide range of emotions in such a short time and the overwhelming feeling of relief and happiness when she arrived safely is something i'll never forget.
Upon returning home and after a very long sleep! It occurred to me that during this time away, i hadn't experienced ANY of the usual problems i'd been having for the last 6 months, now surely if there was something WRONG with me physically, it wouldn't pause itself for three days to give me a break, i mean this was a very stressful and emotional time, and yet i physically felt the best i had felt in ages besides the tiredness.
This is what i put it down to
- Having something else to focus my attention on(albeit this wasn't a situation anyone wanted) it completely took over and i had not time to consider if i was potentially dying of a rare disease or a brain tumour.
- Being out of my comfort zone and a change in my routine, the way i was living every day was enabling my anxiety and all of my physical issues.
- Being more active, i walked more in those 3 days than i had in 6 months.
So after resting from the lack of sleep and food i told myself i was keeping this momentum up and not letting myself slip back in to old ways, and have since left my job after a lot of deliberating, i decided it was holding me back from moving forward with my life, although they were fantastic with me, i want a fresh start, i applied for a job that is something i've wanted to do for a long time, i had the first part of the interview process last week and the formal interview today!
I will hear back in 24-48 hours, even if i do not get this position i feel like i've took a huge step and restored some of my confidence just by putting myself out there, it was frightening but also liberating, i was choosing to do this and that felt good. I hope i haven't bored you all to sleep.. but that's my update, a positive one for a change!
:yahoo: