Wishitaway
23-07-16, 21:33
So picture this!
Sat drinking a cup of tea, watching tele and next to my 4 month old daughter sleeping soundly and suddenly I get a panic attack out of nowhere!
There is absolutely no reason for one, but yet is happening yet again. I'm completely fed up! This is happening more and more and nothing I do can help. There is no trigger, I'm feeling awful and mentally exhausted.
After this panic attack, it's left me really nervous with me thinking about all the bad things in life that may happen. My mind pictures horrible visions of my two children getting hurt, or my youngest having sudden infant death and I'm sat here writing this crying whilst trying to keep a panic attack at bay.
I'm going to my doctors Tuesday because I've been off my meds for the last year but I can't imagine my life being the same ever again even with medication. I truly feel insane. I'm constantly plagued by awful thoughts, thoughts which make me sit up at night, sobbing into my pillow.
I'm starting to feel as though this is far too much, I'd rather go bury myself away and forget about all these horrible thoughts but I can't. I'm terrified of these thoughts, how can I stop them!
Sat drinking a cup of tea, watching tele and next to my 4 month old daughter sleeping soundly and suddenly I get a panic attack out of nowhere!
There is absolutely no reason for one, but yet is happening yet again. I'm completely fed up! This is happening more and more and nothing I do can help. There is no trigger, I'm feeling awful and mentally exhausted.
After this panic attack, it's left me really nervous with me thinking about all the bad things in life that may happen. My mind pictures horrible visions of my two children getting hurt, or my youngest having sudden infant death and I'm sat here writing this crying whilst trying to keep a panic attack at bay.
I'm going to my doctors Tuesday because I've been off my meds for the last year but I can't imagine my life being the same ever again even with medication. I truly feel insane. I'm constantly plagued by awful thoughts, thoughts which make me sit up at night, sobbing into my pillow.
I'm starting to feel as though this is far too much, I'd rather go bury myself away and forget about all these horrible thoughts but I can't. I'm terrified of these thoughts, how can I stop them!