Lockey1995
25-07-16, 16:22
So this last 3-4 months have probably been the worst in my life ive just been living in constant fear and worrying about everything and I mean everything and can't stop at this rate :( my head is just spinning with thoughts and I can't slow it down at all.
It's completely changed me Im really irritable get pissed off easily and I mean easily, Im forgetful now this is scaring me that it is something more and im never forgetful and tired quite a bit.
The 3 concerns, the bowel c fear I won't go into detail as ive done many times but my usual before was go once be done. Now it's just up and down like sometimes twice etc but after the first some can still be left so maybe from drinking etc I get the rest out.
Idk but I don't think this counts as going frequently or does it? As its already there I just can't get rid of it in one trip.
Second one was the pimple on the top of my left testicle that one is settling I think it hasn't grown in 2 months or not by much feels squishy, moveable like when I push it with my finger it doesn't feel raised much. After a shower aswell I think it is on the epudidymis area and away from the main structure.
The third one is these nodes in my neck I think they are nodes sub mental to be precise the one is at the back of my chin just before my neck goes down if that makes any sense and the one under it is above Adam's apple. They're firm and I don't know what is categorised as move able I move my fingers over them but I don't think it feels like they move just my finger on the skin over them im not 100 percent.
These were up after my holiday 3 weeks ago but when I was feeling again last week or so and I couldn't feel them as much or at all. As far as I'm aware I think they've been like this for years and ive been able to feel them quite often.
Are they even nodes or are they somethjng that's meant to be there?
If they are nodes I don't know what's made them come up I don't think hay fever can cause it also I did pop a spot on my lip I doubt that could do it either. I'm just worried that they're going to start growing and get worse one day :(
I think at this point I'm just trying to find something wrong with me. Ive tried taking my mind off the above but it's just not working I get a little voice telling me it's serious and im ignorant for ignoring it.
Been playing Pokemon go recently it's got me out of the house a bit and helping with my social anxiety and bits on my general and ive met a few people playing it :)
Sorry it's a long post.
It's completely changed me Im really irritable get pissed off easily and I mean easily, Im forgetful now this is scaring me that it is something more and im never forgetful and tired quite a bit.
The 3 concerns, the bowel c fear I won't go into detail as ive done many times but my usual before was go once be done. Now it's just up and down like sometimes twice etc but after the first some can still be left so maybe from drinking etc I get the rest out.
Idk but I don't think this counts as going frequently or does it? As its already there I just can't get rid of it in one trip.
Second one was the pimple on the top of my left testicle that one is settling I think it hasn't grown in 2 months or not by much feels squishy, moveable like when I push it with my finger it doesn't feel raised much. After a shower aswell I think it is on the epudidymis area and away from the main structure.
The third one is these nodes in my neck I think they are nodes sub mental to be precise the one is at the back of my chin just before my neck goes down if that makes any sense and the one under it is above Adam's apple. They're firm and I don't know what is categorised as move able I move my fingers over them but I don't think it feels like they move just my finger on the skin over them im not 100 percent.
These were up after my holiday 3 weeks ago but when I was feeling again last week or so and I couldn't feel them as much or at all. As far as I'm aware I think they've been like this for years and ive been able to feel them quite often.
Are they even nodes or are they somethjng that's meant to be there?
If they are nodes I don't know what's made them come up I don't think hay fever can cause it also I did pop a spot on my lip I doubt that could do it either. I'm just worried that they're going to start growing and get worse one day :(
I think at this point I'm just trying to find something wrong with me. Ive tried taking my mind off the above but it's just not working I get a little voice telling me it's serious and im ignorant for ignoring it.
Been playing Pokemon go recently it's got me out of the house a bit and helping with my social anxiety and bits on my general and ive met a few people playing it :)
Sorry it's a long post.