Rohit
02-08-16, 09:32
Hi,
I am Rohit , I am 36 years old and I work in the IT industry. I have a lovely family , stay with my parents and my wife and kid.
Over the past 2 months , I have developed severe anxiety especially while travelling to and fro from work.
I used to take public transport earlier but because of severe anxiety in crowded trains , I stopped taking them. There were so many cases , where I got down before my destination and took a cab.
It went on for few weeks , then I had a panic attack in a cab , in traffic. I couldn't breathe and I begged the cab driver to take me to a doctor , but he couldn't do anything as we were in the middle of a long traffic jam.The experience left me with the feeling of dread.
Since then , I am extremely afraid of traffic and the city where I stay in , its very difficult to avoid traffic.
Its like I am gasping for solutions. I have even shifted workplaces , to an office closer to home. It went well for couple of weeks but started having panic attacks again in traffic.
There was an occasion when I asked my father to pick me up from work. Imagine a 36 year old guy , who is a father himself , is requesting his father to pick him up from work.
I am ashamed of myself , I know its just thoughts , I know its just fear but its unbearable.I have got all the physical checks done , all normal.
Even hiring a driver has not helped and now I have requested my wife to accompany me , to and fro from work.
I used to smoke and drink earlier , I have quit and I have no problems quitting them.
Its killing.
I am not sure if I am depressed because I don't feel depressed but the psychiatrist I visited told me I am depressed and gave me medicines but I don't want to rely on medication.
I don't have any anxiety at work , I don't have problems dealing with difficult clients or colleagues , even getting into an argument but the thought of being in traffic with heavy rains around simply destroys me.
I am even contemplating quitting my job and taking up a low paying job near my house where I can simply walk to work and come back walking.
But its like my career in IT being destroyed but the thought of being closer to my parents , my wife and my kid , makes me feel so secure.
I simply don't know what to do and I have no solutions.
I don't want to take medications , do you think its a good idea ?
I am sorry its a long post but I am looking for different views from the folks at this forum as I don't have friends with whom I can share what I going through and seek their opinion.
Thanks for reading.
I am Rohit , I am 36 years old and I work in the IT industry. I have a lovely family , stay with my parents and my wife and kid.
Over the past 2 months , I have developed severe anxiety especially while travelling to and fro from work.
I used to take public transport earlier but because of severe anxiety in crowded trains , I stopped taking them. There were so many cases , where I got down before my destination and took a cab.
It went on for few weeks , then I had a panic attack in a cab , in traffic. I couldn't breathe and I begged the cab driver to take me to a doctor , but he couldn't do anything as we were in the middle of a long traffic jam.The experience left me with the feeling of dread.
Since then , I am extremely afraid of traffic and the city where I stay in , its very difficult to avoid traffic.
Its like I am gasping for solutions. I have even shifted workplaces , to an office closer to home. It went well for couple of weeks but started having panic attacks again in traffic.
There was an occasion when I asked my father to pick me up from work. Imagine a 36 year old guy , who is a father himself , is requesting his father to pick him up from work.
I am ashamed of myself , I know its just thoughts , I know its just fear but its unbearable.I have got all the physical checks done , all normal.
Even hiring a driver has not helped and now I have requested my wife to accompany me , to and fro from work.
I used to smoke and drink earlier , I have quit and I have no problems quitting them.
Its killing.
I am not sure if I am depressed because I don't feel depressed but the psychiatrist I visited told me I am depressed and gave me medicines but I don't want to rely on medication.
I don't have any anxiety at work , I don't have problems dealing with difficult clients or colleagues , even getting into an argument but the thought of being in traffic with heavy rains around simply destroys me.
I am even contemplating quitting my job and taking up a low paying job near my house where I can simply walk to work and come back walking.
But its like my career in IT being destroyed but the thought of being closer to my parents , my wife and my kid , makes me feel so secure.
I simply don't know what to do and I have no solutions.
I don't want to take medications , do you think its a good idea ?
I am sorry its a long post but I am looking for different views from the folks at this forum as I don't have friends with whom I can share what I going through and seek their opinion.
Thanks for reading.