Apple86
06-08-16, 18:36
This is a question which, as anxiety sufferers, we often ask. The question in itself is surely an indication that what we have is anxiety. I've accepted that what I have is anxiety, but this isn't helping me to move forward as my symptoms and fears are constantly changing, and so new questions are continually raised.
I'm posting as I'm having a bad week with my anxiety. I've shifted my fear, which has previously centred around MS and leukaemia, to a deep concern about schizophrenia. I know this is a common concern for anxiety sufferers, but I can't but feel that my symptoms are unique and this is really scaring me, and I seem to be deteriorating.
I'm very worried that I'm becoming paranoid. I'm finding myself worrying that:
I'm seeing things - I keep seeing people who look like my friends and getting really worried that I'm hallucinating/being paranoid
My partner's poisoning my food - I think this is a worry that I'll worry about this, as I know it's a sign of schizophrenia
My managers at work are tracking my emails/work output - I think this is a normal concern if people are slacking (which I am doing) but again, I'm worried about the worry
I had another awful symptom the other day which I can't really explain but my head just felt like it was going to explode - I felt trapped in my head and like I was about to do something "radical/bad", but I don't know what. I had to get up and wander around to calm myself down.
I want to add that I'm under a psychologist for my eating disorder and she referred my to see a psychiatrist, who has diagnosed me with anorexia (in recovery) with co-morbid health anxiety, panic attacks and obsessional thoughts and images. But again, my anxious mind is wondering whether they've missed something or whether I wasn't honest when describing my symptoms. Could I have something wrong with me that is unique and is an unknown mental health disorder?
I'm very scared of myself and I'm finding things so hard. Can anyone relate?
Thanks,
I'm posting as I'm having a bad week with my anxiety. I've shifted my fear, which has previously centred around MS and leukaemia, to a deep concern about schizophrenia. I know this is a common concern for anxiety sufferers, but I can't but feel that my symptoms are unique and this is really scaring me, and I seem to be deteriorating.
I'm very worried that I'm becoming paranoid. I'm finding myself worrying that:
I'm seeing things - I keep seeing people who look like my friends and getting really worried that I'm hallucinating/being paranoid
My partner's poisoning my food - I think this is a worry that I'll worry about this, as I know it's a sign of schizophrenia
My managers at work are tracking my emails/work output - I think this is a normal concern if people are slacking (which I am doing) but again, I'm worried about the worry
I had another awful symptom the other day which I can't really explain but my head just felt like it was going to explode - I felt trapped in my head and like I was about to do something "radical/bad", but I don't know what. I had to get up and wander around to calm myself down.
I want to add that I'm under a psychologist for my eating disorder and she referred my to see a psychiatrist, who has diagnosed me with anorexia (in recovery) with co-morbid health anxiety, panic attacks and obsessional thoughts and images. But again, my anxious mind is wondering whether they've missed something or whether I wasn't honest when describing my symptoms. Could I have something wrong with me that is unique and is an unknown mental health disorder?
I'm very scared of myself and I'm finding things so hard. Can anyone relate?
Thanks,