Andromeda
10-08-16, 10:28
Hello!
I have not posted here for a very long time.
After suffering from health anxiety for 8 very long years it seems as though a pattern has developed with my health anxiety.
I am able to manage it now day to day, I have been through almost a year long period of coping and managing this horrible beast and keeping it at bay.
The times it seems to come back are when I'm particularly stressed or if I'm actually ill.
On Monday night I had been to the gym, I came home all was normal and as I was settling down for bed I noticed my throat started to feel smokey. I'm not sure if anyone's ever had that sensation before but it usually signals the start of something for me :doh:
So I wake up on Tuesday and the smokeyness is even worse, I'm feeling sick and hot and horrible, I've got a cough (albeit a forced cough due to the smokey sensation) and today now I have woken up blowing horrible green mucus out, my chest feels horrible and tight, I'm hot and I feel like I've been hit by a truck.
I've had really bad chest infections a few times after getting walking pneumonia in 2012.
Unfortunately when I get any virus or cold my brain automatically jumps to doom and gloom and I invisage myself in hospital dying of severe pneumonia...
Everyone else around me seems to be able to get on with these infections but I just always feel floored like I'm going to die and that I can't get better without antibiotics.
Unfortunately I'm in no fit state to go to the walk in centre today so I was going to leave it until tomorrow but now I'm worried that I'm going to take a horrible turn between now and then and it's just not going well for me right now.
The fact that I've just rambled on and on after a year of being totally okay is so disheartening. I don't know why I can't just get on with it like everyone else
:wacko:
I have not posted here for a very long time.
After suffering from health anxiety for 8 very long years it seems as though a pattern has developed with my health anxiety.
I am able to manage it now day to day, I have been through almost a year long period of coping and managing this horrible beast and keeping it at bay.
The times it seems to come back are when I'm particularly stressed or if I'm actually ill.
On Monday night I had been to the gym, I came home all was normal and as I was settling down for bed I noticed my throat started to feel smokey. I'm not sure if anyone's ever had that sensation before but it usually signals the start of something for me :doh:
So I wake up on Tuesday and the smokeyness is even worse, I'm feeling sick and hot and horrible, I've got a cough (albeit a forced cough due to the smokey sensation) and today now I have woken up blowing horrible green mucus out, my chest feels horrible and tight, I'm hot and I feel like I've been hit by a truck.
I've had really bad chest infections a few times after getting walking pneumonia in 2012.
Unfortunately when I get any virus or cold my brain automatically jumps to doom and gloom and I invisage myself in hospital dying of severe pneumonia...
Everyone else around me seems to be able to get on with these infections but I just always feel floored like I'm going to die and that I can't get better without antibiotics.
Unfortunately I'm in no fit state to go to the walk in centre today so I was going to leave it until tomorrow but now I'm worried that I'm going to take a horrible turn between now and then and it's just not going well for me right now.
The fact that I've just rambled on and on after a year of being totally okay is so disheartening. I don't know why I can't just get on with it like everyone else
:wacko: