venusbluejeans
13-08-16, 23:44
Hiya All…
When I am having an anxiety blip one of my BIG things is monophobia, the fear of being alone…. To be honest I am not sure why, maybe it is because I was alone when one of the most traumatic things happened to me, or maybe I just have to be with my safe person… who knows
Sometimes I used to do anything not to be alone and have always said that I could never live alone because of it.
A few months ago I was asked by 2 separate families if I could house/cat/kitten/dog sit for a week while they were on holiday…. With a bit of trepidation I agreed….. Two different weeks in the summer holidays living in a different house and also alone….. I could do that, I could go home in between to charge my batteries and resolve any of the anxiety from being alone…….. Unless the 2 weeks were 2 weeks following each other……. Oops!!
I left home on the 29th July, to look after one house and to my surprise I had no anxiety, I was actually looking forward to it, being able to do what i wanted to do and when i wanted to do it and nobody to answer to if I spent the whole day in my PJ’s. I had a great week
The 2nd week I thought I would get anxious too as it was a house I hadn’t stopped the night in before and in a place I wasn’t really familiar with….. Of I went from one house to the other expecting the anxiety to appear but it never did… I was fine, no anxiety whatsoever all week.
I amazed myself that I could do this this last two weeks and although I did miss my cats I was really comfortable with my own company, I actually enjoyed it (I never thought I would ever say that) I think at the minute I have beaten my monophobia and really like being on my own as well as being with people.
Could I live alone? Yes I think I could!
When I am having an anxiety blip one of my BIG things is monophobia, the fear of being alone…. To be honest I am not sure why, maybe it is because I was alone when one of the most traumatic things happened to me, or maybe I just have to be with my safe person… who knows
Sometimes I used to do anything not to be alone and have always said that I could never live alone because of it.
A few months ago I was asked by 2 separate families if I could house/cat/kitten/dog sit for a week while they were on holiday…. With a bit of trepidation I agreed….. Two different weeks in the summer holidays living in a different house and also alone….. I could do that, I could go home in between to charge my batteries and resolve any of the anxiety from being alone…….. Unless the 2 weeks were 2 weeks following each other……. Oops!!
I left home on the 29th July, to look after one house and to my surprise I had no anxiety, I was actually looking forward to it, being able to do what i wanted to do and when i wanted to do it and nobody to answer to if I spent the whole day in my PJ’s. I had a great week
The 2nd week I thought I would get anxious too as it was a house I hadn’t stopped the night in before and in a place I wasn’t really familiar with….. Of I went from one house to the other expecting the anxiety to appear but it never did… I was fine, no anxiety whatsoever all week.
I amazed myself that I could do this this last two weeks and although I did miss my cats I was really comfortable with my own company, I actually enjoyed it (I never thought I would ever say that) I think at the minute I have beaten my monophobia and really like being on my own as well as being with people.
Could I live alone? Yes I think I could!