KatiePink
14-08-16, 22:31
I've got back into work after a long time off. Slowly starting to get back some normality and it's been a long time coming! I am proud of myself for once again picking myself up and managing to climb out of the hole I was in, I am still struggling with anxiety, mainly work related as each day is a challenge to get there.
I know that not many people 'enjoy' work and it's just something you must do. Most people don't like going but I don't know if the feelings I have are classed as 'normal'or not. :huh:
Basically I hate knowing that the day doesn't belong to me so to speak, instead of just getting ready and leaving the house, I'll be at home thinking about the entire day and how I'm going to get through it, then I'll think about the long week ahead and it makes me feel so overwhelmed. I would say I feel 'stuck' in pretty much any job I have. I am very aware that I 'have' to go to work and it's not that I 'want' to.. maybe I am just really lazy that's what I think sometimes because everyone around me seems to do it no problem.
It gets me down because I feel there's so much more to life, and I hate not feeling free and feeling like I'm not in control. Can anyone understand this?
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I do have panic attacks in the mornings a lot, and at night before bed I feel a horrible sense of dread, I hate feeling like this and want to just be happy, which I am in many ways but working is just so hard for me :unsure: I hope it gets easier as I get better(with anxiety) and I can live a normal life like other people just getting on with it
I know that not many people 'enjoy' work and it's just something you must do. Most people don't like going but I don't know if the feelings I have are classed as 'normal'or not. :huh:
Basically I hate knowing that the day doesn't belong to me so to speak, instead of just getting ready and leaving the house, I'll be at home thinking about the entire day and how I'm going to get through it, then I'll think about the long week ahead and it makes me feel so overwhelmed. I would say I feel 'stuck' in pretty much any job I have. I am very aware that I 'have' to go to work and it's not that I 'want' to.. maybe I am just really lazy that's what I think sometimes because everyone around me seems to do it no problem.
It gets me down because I feel there's so much more to life, and I hate not feeling free and feeling like I'm not in control. Can anyone understand this?
---------- Post added at 22:31 ---------- Previous post was at 22:27 ----------
I do have panic attacks in the mornings a lot, and at night before bed I feel a horrible sense of dread, I hate feeling like this and want to just be happy, which I am in many ways but working is just so hard for me :unsure: I hope it gets easier as I get better(with anxiety) and I can live a normal life like other people just getting on with it