ang202
16-08-16, 02:05
Hi everybody,
This is my first post here. I have been suffering from health anxiety quite badly for the past two months. Over this time period I have been convinced I had bowel cancer, skin cancer, breast cancer, cervical cancer and currently ovarian cancer. I am terrified I am going to die of cancer within the next few years and leave my 4 and 1 year old children without a mother. This thought plagues me constantly and I find myself several times a day in tears thinking about them crying for me after I have gone and no one being able to comfort them as I am the one they need when they are upset. I find myself making plans about leaving letters for them to read on the special occasions in their futures that I won't be here for and playing out in my head the conversations I would need to have with my husband about how I want him to move on after I am gone and how to raise the kids without me. I have always worried over my health, even as a child, however in the past I have always been able to move on after being told by a doctor that I am ok. This time it seems I am unable to relax despite what my doctor says. I am finding it difficult to go about my life, it's like my brain is 40 percent focused on what I should be doing and 60 percent focused on my health issues and the fact that I may be dieing soon and leaving my family. My husband is trying hard to be patient and supportive but is getting rather fed up with my constant morbid thoughts. I am currently convinced I have ovarian cancer due to a constant need to urinate. This constant need to urinate began on a day I was attending a funeral so I put it down to being nervous however it is now almost 2 weeks later and I m still feeling this constant urge. It is making me really uncomfortable and frustrated. Dr google alerted me that it could be ovarian cancer so I went off to my doc. He assured me it was very unlikely, as unlikely as winning the lotto, that this could be the case. He said due to my age, my lack of family history, the abdominal ultrasound I had 10 months ago being clear, the symptoms came on suddenly rather then a gradual build up, no abdominal mass and no other symptoms that he wouldn't even consider this a possibility. I tested negative for a uti and my doctor puts my constant need to urinate down to anxiety. I was reassured slightly however find it difficult to believe that this constant need to urinate could be anxiety related so am still worried it is caused by a cancer pressing on my bladder. Has anyone else had a constant need to urinate as an anxiety symptom? How did you solve the problem? My doctor has referred me to a physiatrist to help get a handle on the anxiety but my appointment is a few weeks away still.
Thanks in advance for your replies, it will be great to have someone to talk about all of this with.
This is my first post here. I have been suffering from health anxiety quite badly for the past two months. Over this time period I have been convinced I had bowel cancer, skin cancer, breast cancer, cervical cancer and currently ovarian cancer. I am terrified I am going to die of cancer within the next few years and leave my 4 and 1 year old children without a mother. This thought plagues me constantly and I find myself several times a day in tears thinking about them crying for me after I have gone and no one being able to comfort them as I am the one they need when they are upset. I find myself making plans about leaving letters for them to read on the special occasions in their futures that I won't be here for and playing out in my head the conversations I would need to have with my husband about how I want him to move on after I am gone and how to raise the kids without me. I have always worried over my health, even as a child, however in the past I have always been able to move on after being told by a doctor that I am ok. This time it seems I am unable to relax despite what my doctor says. I am finding it difficult to go about my life, it's like my brain is 40 percent focused on what I should be doing and 60 percent focused on my health issues and the fact that I may be dieing soon and leaving my family. My husband is trying hard to be patient and supportive but is getting rather fed up with my constant morbid thoughts. I am currently convinced I have ovarian cancer due to a constant need to urinate. This constant need to urinate began on a day I was attending a funeral so I put it down to being nervous however it is now almost 2 weeks later and I m still feeling this constant urge. It is making me really uncomfortable and frustrated. Dr google alerted me that it could be ovarian cancer so I went off to my doc. He assured me it was very unlikely, as unlikely as winning the lotto, that this could be the case. He said due to my age, my lack of family history, the abdominal ultrasound I had 10 months ago being clear, the symptoms came on suddenly rather then a gradual build up, no abdominal mass and no other symptoms that he wouldn't even consider this a possibility. I tested negative for a uti and my doctor puts my constant need to urinate down to anxiety. I was reassured slightly however find it difficult to believe that this constant need to urinate could be anxiety related so am still worried it is caused by a cancer pressing on my bladder. Has anyone else had a constant need to urinate as an anxiety symptom? How did you solve the problem? My doctor has referred me to a physiatrist to help get a handle on the anxiety but my appointment is a few weeks away still.
Thanks in advance for your replies, it will be great to have someone to talk about all of this with.