Ulver
19-08-16, 12:50
Hello all,
I've been lurking into this forum for some time now, reading and trying to get courage by the -so many- similar to mine stories here but today I decided to introduce myself.
I am a 34 years old woman who has been having stress and anxiety since my very early years (back then mostly in the form of fears and phobias). It used to be bearable. Anxiety on and off, a couple of panic attacks sporadically and a few cry spells now and then. I could stand this. Really. Sadly on my 28th years and after experiencing my father's sudden death everything became much more intensive (I was in deep depression for 6 months after the event without going into anti depressants) and it seems my anxiety became somewhat a permanent thing.
My anxiety involves mostly around health related issues. I constantly feel I am sick and close to death. I've seen numerous doctors, I've gone through quite a few medical tests, I've been to the ER many times but the fear is still there. The funny thing is that my psychosomatic symptoms change all the time. So, even if I get the reassurance from a specialist that my heart for instance is fine, a few weeks (or even days) later my body will get brand new symptoms that have to do with some other part of my body. Might be headaches, tiredness, coughing etc. In that sense I constantly have to visit doctors to check something new every time. And I guess you all know that the list of diseases is pretty much endless.
I've been to a therapist but it seems the help I was getting was not enough. I cannot say I noticed any difference for the better. I am pretty much desperate and feeling quite hopeless and drained. This thing is draining my vital energy. My brain is always full of dark thoughts and my heart constantly in fear. It has come to a point that I am drifting back to depression, and this time it is because I can see that this thing is taking my life.Anxiety does not allow me to live my life the way I want.
Another yet sufferer...
I've been lurking into this forum for some time now, reading and trying to get courage by the -so many- similar to mine stories here but today I decided to introduce myself.
I am a 34 years old woman who has been having stress and anxiety since my very early years (back then mostly in the form of fears and phobias). It used to be bearable. Anxiety on and off, a couple of panic attacks sporadically and a few cry spells now and then. I could stand this. Really. Sadly on my 28th years and after experiencing my father's sudden death everything became much more intensive (I was in deep depression for 6 months after the event without going into anti depressants) and it seems my anxiety became somewhat a permanent thing.
My anxiety involves mostly around health related issues. I constantly feel I am sick and close to death. I've seen numerous doctors, I've gone through quite a few medical tests, I've been to the ER many times but the fear is still there. The funny thing is that my psychosomatic symptoms change all the time. So, even if I get the reassurance from a specialist that my heart for instance is fine, a few weeks (or even days) later my body will get brand new symptoms that have to do with some other part of my body. Might be headaches, tiredness, coughing etc. In that sense I constantly have to visit doctors to check something new every time. And I guess you all know that the list of diseases is pretty much endless.
I've been to a therapist but it seems the help I was getting was not enough. I cannot say I noticed any difference for the better. I am pretty much desperate and feeling quite hopeless and drained. This thing is draining my vital energy. My brain is always full of dark thoughts and my heart constantly in fear. It has come to a point that I am drifting back to depression, and this time it is because I can see that this thing is taking my life.Anxiety does not allow me to live my life the way I want.
Another yet sufferer...