Savvy_Darling
23-08-16, 15:57
One of the things I most regret doing (and I'm sure many of you can agree) is googling. Having read so many things on illnesses and symptoms I have a library of horrible health information in my brain.. And it's like once you learn something it's pretty hard to forget about it ya know?
I haven't googled really anything lately but with previous knowledge I have stored away it always comes back to bit me in the butt.
For example, my new obsession with swallowing and feeling like I have Ben having difficulty swallowing or mucus in my throat / possible dry mouth.. I've had reoccurring thoughts of esphougeus cancer.. Because I remember reading about a girl having it and she had difficulty swallowing. SO when that pops in my head I get mini anxiety attacks where I feel really scared and that I'm surely gonna die this time. The same with my vein obsession that's been going on for a couple monthes... I remember reading something about tumors needing more blood flow.. Something from a breast cancer survivor having noticed odd veins and had said the thing about it being caused from cancer.
So when I look at my veins in the mirror on my chest and the really noticeable blue ones in my upper arm I totally freak out and get scared about it being cancer..or a heart problem I suppose. :( anyways these things I've read only make my anxiety about what I've been worried about 1000x worse.. Because o start to picture how I'm dying for sure this time and I get so scared.
I feel really anxious this morning and I've thought abou the things I mentioned above and I've had a couple quick panic attacks where I just feel so intensely frightened. I just wish I never read about anything like that because I know my anxiety uses it to justify itself..any rational thoughts go out the window. Man I'm just feeling so overwhelmed and the impending doom feeling is in full swing today I feel it. :( I just wanted to post and wonde if anyone else has felt this way? Just could use someone to talk too... Thanks :weep:
I haven't googled really anything lately but with previous knowledge I have stored away it always comes back to bit me in the butt.
For example, my new obsession with swallowing and feeling like I have Ben having difficulty swallowing or mucus in my throat / possible dry mouth.. I've had reoccurring thoughts of esphougeus cancer.. Because I remember reading about a girl having it and she had difficulty swallowing. SO when that pops in my head I get mini anxiety attacks where I feel really scared and that I'm surely gonna die this time. The same with my vein obsession that's been going on for a couple monthes... I remember reading something about tumors needing more blood flow.. Something from a breast cancer survivor having noticed odd veins and had said the thing about it being caused from cancer.
So when I look at my veins in the mirror on my chest and the really noticeable blue ones in my upper arm I totally freak out and get scared about it being cancer..or a heart problem I suppose. :( anyways these things I've read only make my anxiety about what I've been worried about 1000x worse.. Because o start to picture how I'm dying for sure this time and I get so scared.
I feel really anxious this morning and I've thought abou the things I mentioned above and I've had a couple quick panic attacks where I just feel so intensely frightened. I just wish I never read about anything like that because I know my anxiety uses it to justify itself..any rational thoughts go out the window. Man I'm just feeling so overwhelmed and the impending doom feeling is in full swing today I feel it. :( I just wanted to post and wonde if anyone else has felt this way? Just could use someone to talk too... Thanks :weep: