conan
25-08-16, 03:35
i have a very vivid image lately, of me standing with one leg on each side of some kind of portal. on this side is the real world, where i'm battling anxiety, and i have all this support and resources and theoretically everything i need to pull my whole body back in. on the other side, is a world where the fear that my symptoms could be something real is actually quite reasonable, prudent even, and there is a real chance that i will be saying goodbye to my beautiful children and wife for the last time in the near future, that if i take the advice and leave myself alone, stop going to the doctors, i might miss something, then not only would i vanish from the earth and from my family, but it would be my fault because i ignored the signs, because i let the "real world" "win".
and... i just wanted to share that somewhere. not sure if this is the place.
and... i just wanted to share that somewhere. not sure if this is the place.