JosieLouise
29-08-16, 15:22
I had no idea what to title this... I don't want to trigger anybody. I won't go into details for that same reason.
My Grandad's going to die soon. We've known this since the beginning of the year and we reckon it'll probably be a couple more months. So naturally our whole family is sort of revolving around it. We're not going anywhere far away from home, cancelled our summer holidays, not making any solid plans for the rest of the year. It's like this cloud hanging over our heads, the most bizarre feeling of waiting for it to happen.
And then there's selfish old me, whose health anxiety is going into overdrive because of all this. I can't type the word, but you can probably guess that my Grandad's illness is the same/similar to what my anxiety fixates on. So every time I see him, every time we talk about it, every time I go to a hospital with him, it kicks in. It's getting to the point where I don't want to see him, which makes me feel like a horrible human being, because I mentally can't cope with seeing what IT is doing to him.
I'm on a waiting list for counselling. I don't think it can come soon enough.
My Grandad's going to die soon. We've known this since the beginning of the year and we reckon it'll probably be a couple more months. So naturally our whole family is sort of revolving around it. We're not going anywhere far away from home, cancelled our summer holidays, not making any solid plans for the rest of the year. It's like this cloud hanging over our heads, the most bizarre feeling of waiting for it to happen.
And then there's selfish old me, whose health anxiety is going into overdrive because of all this. I can't type the word, but you can probably guess that my Grandad's illness is the same/similar to what my anxiety fixates on. So every time I see him, every time we talk about it, every time I go to a hospital with him, it kicks in. It's getting to the point where I don't want to see him, which makes me feel like a horrible human being, because I mentally can't cope with seeing what IT is doing to him.
I'm on a waiting list for counselling. I don't think it can come soon enough.