pinkroxy04
03-09-16, 07:17
Hello I am new to the forum
I am posting this under social anxiety because I have had issues with social anxiety before and I feel this incident is quite similar.
I have just graduated from University doing a bachelor in teaching early childhood education and now have just recently started a new job in a preschool teaching young children from 2 to 5 years of age.
I am now provisionally registered and underway with my teaching and getting use to my new career.
First I want to say I love where I am working, the children and their families are amazing and the teachers I work with are so lovely, friendly and supportive in every way. However the issue with my anxiety lies with me and my own issues. I have noticed with critique from others I tend to feel a bit on edge, I get this feeling that I have failed and am not doing a great job.
When this happens a few times I feel like I am a failure and not doing a good job at all, I get all flustered and nervous and this often makes me feel worse and more likely to muck up.
Its only little things I have been critiqued on and yes its just learning experiences too but I cannot help feeling that I am not doing a good job at all. The teachers are nice and I get a long with them all in a personal manner but I just feel so over sensitive at times.
I have had critique in my practicums during study before while I was on meds and didn't seem to have a problem then and took it on board.
I am wondering if its because of the way its done, the manager often thanks me for helping her with little things which I find reassuring at times but its the other staff for small minor things tell me what I need to correct and I just feel pressured and like a failure.
To me feeling like this is irrational as it is only human to make small mistakes and to learn from them but for me lately I just feel an intense anxiety, hurt and like a failure and then it makes me feel like I am mucking up even more because of the anxiousness.
I have often left the work place at the end of the day in tears and needing to have a big cry, the weekends seem to be a huge breathing space for me and when I know Monday is coming I start feel like I am having a panic attack.
I have got myself some rescue remedy from the local chemist and they have also made up a special bach for me catering to my personal emotions and stress.
In 2011 I had something similar happen as a lifeguard I was a pool lifeguard for three years from 2008 to 2011 and at the end was working with this man who was rather verbally abusive. I found him quite intense and I got really anxious.
I left the job to go into study and started anti depressants as well as a low dose of seroquel for about 18 months. I had weaned off those and continued my three years of study and was doing the best I have ever done in years.
However I have noticed my anxiety starting up again since I started working, it has made me feel awkward I feel like I do and say awkward things and I feel like my brain goes into a muddle and then I feel like crying and panicking because I get embarrassed and feel like a screw up.
I was wondering if anyone else has been in a similar situation as this and if there is anything they recommend for me. I really don't want to go back on prescription meds again as I didn't really like them that much and I want to try and stay away from those if I can.
Also this is my dream job and I am very passionate about teaching and making a difference in young children's lives. I am actually very blessed to have an advantage of completing my studies and being in a career like this. However my anxiety is making me feel like I am a really bad teacher and just failing at everything when I know I want to be positive and have a healthy outlook on this so I can improve my practice and move forward. I have already made close relationships with the children I just feel anxious evvery time I get critiqued or pointed out I did something wrong by another teacher, working together as a team and discussing other things is not an issue at all just the criticism
Any help, advice or just sharing similar experiences would be much appreciated. Thank you.
I am posting this under social anxiety because I have had issues with social anxiety before and I feel this incident is quite similar.
I have just graduated from University doing a bachelor in teaching early childhood education and now have just recently started a new job in a preschool teaching young children from 2 to 5 years of age.
I am now provisionally registered and underway with my teaching and getting use to my new career.
First I want to say I love where I am working, the children and their families are amazing and the teachers I work with are so lovely, friendly and supportive in every way. However the issue with my anxiety lies with me and my own issues. I have noticed with critique from others I tend to feel a bit on edge, I get this feeling that I have failed and am not doing a great job.
When this happens a few times I feel like I am a failure and not doing a good job at all, I get all flustered and nervous and this often makes me feel worse and more likely to muck up.
Its only little things I have been critiqued on and yes its just learning experiences too but I cannot help feeling that I am not doing a good job at all. The teachers are nice and I get a long with them all in a personal manner but I just feel so over sensitive at times.
I have had critique in my practicums during study before while I was on meds and didn't seem to have a problem then and took it on board.
I am wondering if its because of the way its done, the manager often thanks me for helping her with little things which I find reassuring at times but its the other staff for small minor things tell me what I need to correct and I just feel pressured and like a failure.
To me feeling like this is irrational as it is only human to make small mistakes and to learn from them but for me lately I just feel an intense anxiety, hurt and like a failure and then it makes me feel like I am mucking up even more because of the anxiousness.
I have often left the work place at the end of the day in tears and needing to have a big cry, the weekends seem to be a huge breathing space for me and when I know Monday is coming I start feel like I am having a panic attack.
I have got myself some rescue remedy from the local chemist and they have also made up a special bach for me catering to my personal emotions and stress.
In 2011 I had something similar happen as a lifeguard I was a pool lifeguard for three years from 2008 to 2011 and at the end was working with this man who was rather verbally abusive. I found him quite intense and I got really anxious.
I left the job to go into study and started anti depressants as well as a low dose of seroquel for about 18 months. I had weaned off those and continued my three years of study and was doing the best I have ever done in years.
However I have noticed my anxiety starting up again since I started working, it has made me feel awkward I feel like I do and say awkward things and I feel like my brain goes into a muddle and then I feel like crying and panicking because I get embarrassed and feel like a screw up.
I was wondering if anyone else has been in a similar situation as this and if there is anything they recommend for me. I really don't want to go back on prescription meds again as I didn't really like them that much and I want to try and stay away from those if I can.
Also this is my dream job and I am very passionate about teaching and making a difference in young children's lives. I am actually very blessed to have an advantage of completing my studies and being in a career like this. However my anxiety is making me feel like I am a really bad teacher and just failing at everything when I know I want to be positive and have a healthy outlook on this so I can improve my practice and move forward. I have already made close relationships with the children I just feel anxious evvery time I get critiqued or pointed out I did something wrong by another teacher, working together as a team and discussing other things is not an issue at all just the criticism
Any help, advice or just sharing similar experiences would be much appreciated. Thank you.