Desimal
06-09-16, 09:49
One of the major things that contributes in my anxiety is this constant ringing in my ears. I had it since i was a little kid but it was merely a nuisance when i was trying to sleep in total silence, i was able to hear it only when i actually thought about it. After a very stressfull incident involving a death of a loved one the ringing went through the roof and i believe it actually sparked my whole anxiety disorder.
Fast forward 2 years later i can say i am in a better place anxiety wise, i have learned what anxiety is and that it can not actually harm me i havent had an episode of depersonalization in months whitch feels great considering i was always in this state when my whole struggle started. If you check my post history you will see that i also suffered by a "condition" that made my vision staticky/grainy (like small tv static in an old tv) especially when i was in a dark room or looking at the night sky. Well, with the help of some members here i realised that this is normal and my anxiety was getting the best of me making it much more noticable when normally, my brain would fitler it out.
I honestly believe the only thing that keeps me back and keeps the anxiety circle going is my fear of this ringing getting louder and that i may not be able to cope with it. It has pretty much taken over my life, i doen't let me relax after a hard day at work, it has destroyed my ability to concentrate on my studies and in general makes me afraid of going anywhere remotely loud because i fear it might get worse after reading so many horror stories on the net...
It is a bit dissapointing that i let something like this hold back my life considering the fact that i always had it and it didn't pose any serious problem, i could always put it in the back of my mind and even if i heard it i wouldn't cause me any panic and anxiety but now even when i don't hear it my thought are always around this and when i do hear it it causes me much distress. Does any of you have this constant ringing in your ears? Does it stop you from living your life? Any support is welcome.
Fast forward 2 years later i can say i am in a better place anxiety wise, i have learned what anxiety is and that it can not actually harm me i havent had an episode of depersonalization in months whitch feels great considering i was always in this state when my whole struggle started. If you check my post history you will see that i also suffered by a "condition" that made my vision staticky/grainy (like small tv static in an old tv) especially when i was in a dark room or looking at the night sky. Well, with the help of some members here i realised that this is normal and my anxiety was getting the best of me making it much more noticable when normally, my brain would fitler it out.
I honestly believe the only thing that keeps me back and keeps the anxiety circle going is my fear of this ringing getting louder and that i may not be able to cope with it. It has pretty much taken over my life, i doen't let me relax after a hard day at work, it has destroyed my ability to concentrate on my studies and in general makes me afraid of going anywhere remotely loud because i fear it might get worse after reading so many horror stories on the net...
It is a bit dissapointing that i let something like this hold back my life considering the fact that i always had it and it didn't pose any serious problem, i could always put it in the back of my mind and even if i heard it i wouldn't cause me any panic and anxiety but now even when i don't hear it my thought are always around this and when i do hear it it causes me much distress. Does any of you have this constant ringing in your ears? Does it stop you from living your life? Any support is welcome.