SuperBugMan
12-09-16, 19:09
Hey guys
About a month ago I had the worst string of panic attacks in my life. I couldn't stop shaking for nearly 2 days, got nausea and vomited. I was convinced I had brain cancer. I even cried a few times for seemingly NO REASON, which further supported the brain tumor idea.. When I went to the doctor and had abnormal liver enzymes (AST 67 ALT 94) I was convinced it was the end. The cancer had spread to my liver from my brain.
I got another liver test and came back normal, saw a neurologist and be said it's all anxiety.
I saw a psychiatrist on the 8th and started cymbalta. Since then I haven't been able to shake the feeling that I'm loosing it. Everything feels like a dream. Sometimes I have a hard time sorting my memories. Confusing some dream memories with real life. Last night I had a vivid nightmare and was upset for a few minutes, it took me two minutes to realize it was all a dream
I'm also having existential issues. Why am I here, what is the point, am I going crazy, society is so fragile, life is so fragile...
A few days ago I was driving home and on my way I saw a mailbox and firehydrant. In the corner of my eye. I was sure it was a person about to step in the road. Like 99%. When I looked at it for a second I realized it was just a mailbox
Sometimes I will think I hear a phone ringing.
I have had this happen before. I've also had delusions of medical problems. I was convinced I had a brain tumor a while back. I also have small sparks or flashes light in my vision ocassionally, especially when moving my head. I have had it looked at my an Opthomoligist and they said my eyes are fine.
After all of this, I started researching and noticed that many of these symptoms appear to be the signs of early schizophrenia
. My Symptoms: Derealization, Brain Fog, random messed up thoughts, replaying music in my head, Illusions, and anxiety.
My days now consist of a constant fear of Schizophrenia. Every sound I hear needs to be accounted for. I often pull out my phone and video record to prove that a sound really happened. Just this last night, one of my brothers had an alarm that went off at 4am. Instantly, I thought I had hallucinated and spent the rest of the night googling predomal schizophrenia symptoms. Only to find out in the morning that alarm really happened
Could this be the start of schizophrenia? I have seen a Psychiatrist, but he thinks it's just ocd and anxiety.
I've also done 23andme genetic testing, and according to my raw data, I am 6x more likely to develop schizophrenia than the general population
About a month ago I had the worst string of panic attacks in my life. I couldn't stop shaking for nearly 2 days, got nausea and vomited. I was convinced I had brain cancer. I even cried a few times for seemingly NO REASON, which further supported the brain tumor idea.. When I went to the doctor and had abnormal liver enzymes (AST 67 ALT 94) I was convinced it was the end. The cancer had spread to my liver from my brain.
I got another liver test and came back normal, saw a neurologist and be said it's all anxiety.
I saw a psychiatrist on the 8th and started cymbalta. Since then I haven't been able to shake the feeling that I'm loosing it. Everything feels like a dream. Sometimes I have a hard time sorting my memories. Confusing some dream memories with real life. Last night I had a vivid nightmare and was upset for a few minutes, it took me two minutes to realize it was all a dream
I'm also having existential issues. Why am I here, what is the point, am I going crazy, society is so fragile, life is so fragile...
A few days ago I was driving home and on my way I saw a mailbox and firehydrant. In the corner of my eye. I was sure it was a person about to step in the road. Like 99%. When I looked at it for a second I realized it was just a mailbox
Sometimes I will think I hear a phone ringing.
I have had this happen before. I've also had delusions of medical problems. I was convinced I had a brain tumor a while back. I also have small sparks or flashes light in my vision ocassionally, especially when moving my head. I have had it looked at my an Opthomoligist and they said my eyes are fine.
After all of this, I started researching and noticed that many of these symptoms appear to be the signs of early schizophrenia
. My Symptoms: Derealization, Brain Fog, random messed up thoughts, replaying music in my head, Illusions, and anxiety.
My days now consist of a constant fear of Schizophrenia. Every sound I hear needs to be accounted for. I often pull out my phone and video record to prove that a sound really happened. Just this last night, one of my brothers had an alarm that went off at 4am. Instantly, I thought I had hallucinated and spent the rest of the night googling predomal schizophrenia symptoms. Only to find out in the morning that alarm really happened
Could this be the start of schizophrenia? I have seen a Psychiatrist, but he thinks it's just ocd and anxiety.
I've also done 23andme genetic testing, and according to my raw data, I am 6x more likely to develop schizophrenia than the general population