franfhm
26-03-07, 22:06
Hey all, sorry I haven't posted for a while life has been so hectic, and sorry for this essay but I need to get it all off my chest.
As some of you may (or may not!) remember, I moved in to a new flat with my boyfriend just before Christmas. Things really haven't gone well. I spent the first month wanting to go home to my parents (I'm 23 for god's sake), and the rest of it just goes by day to day. We've had problems with our neighbours regularly and its been a nightmare - so we've decided to move.
The only problem is we've had trouble selling, so we've part exchanged against a new house on the same estate. This meaning we haven't made that much money on the place, and have a huge mortgage on the new place. So in less than 6 months, all the stress of last time we have to go through again. I just don't feel I can take it all again. The money bit is quite worrying too, and my boyfriend is having to sell his car so we can help pay for the new place. Meaning the trip to Australia we were so looking forward to in Jan 2008 is now off.
To make matters worse, every Monday night my boyfriend goes out with his friends, which I don't have a problem with. But he drinks too much and usually ends up being sick - which I can hear, would be ok but I'm terrified of sick and anything related to it. I've tried talking to him about it but he just thinks I'm nagging.
My anxiety is just getting the better of me know and its going to end up tearing us apart. He's getting fed up of me always having anxiety attacks, and due to these me being tired a lot, and show no intrest in anything anymore. I just get up, go to work, lose myself in TV and go to sleep.
I just don't feel I can handle anything anymore, I just want to go home to my parents and curl up in my old room forever.
As some of you may (or may not!) remember, I moved in to a new flat with my boyfriend just before Christmas. Things really haven't gone well. I spent the first month wanting to go home to my parents (I'm 23 for god's sake), and the rest of it just goes by day to day. We've had problems with our neighbours regularly and its been a nightmare - so we've decided to move.
The only problem is we've had trouble selling, so we've part exchanged against a new house on the same estate. This meaning we haven't made that much money on the place, and have a huge mortgage on the new place. So in less than 6 months, all the stress of last time we have to go through again. I just don't feel I can take it all again. The money bit is quite worrying too, and my boyfriend is having to sell his car so we can help pay for the new place. Meaning the trip to Australia we were so looking forward to in Jan 2008 is now off.
To make matters worse, every Monday night my boyfriend goes out with his friends, which I don't have a problem with. But he drinks too much and usually ends up being sick - which I can hear, would be ok but I'm terrified of sick and anything related to it. I've tried talking to him about it but he just thinks I'm nagging.
My anxiety is just getting the better of me know and its going to end up tearing us apart. He's getting fed up of me always having anxiety attacks, and due to these me being tired a lot, and show no intrest in anything anymore. I just get up, go to work, lose myself in TV and go to sleep.
I just don't feel I can handle anything anymore, I just want to go home to my parents and curl up in my old room forever.