3535nathan
13-09-16, 07:24
Hi
I am hoping someone might be able to help me.
I started having a panic attacks about 5 years ago it started when I cam home from work and went for a number 1 and when I finished I had the urge to go again and I did not know why so I had a huge panic attack. Since then I had a number of tests etc that showed I had nothing wrong with my bladder. After this I was afraid to go to places and I then went away for two days to Ireland and while I was over their I had a panic attack whilst in a restaurant which resorted in me booking a flight streight home. I new at this point we me withdrawing from going out etc I started to see a therapist and nearly £1000 later I still felt anxious but since that day two years ago I no longer had actual attacks just anxiety. Anyway 4 months ago I found out my gf is pregnant which imidiatly brought back the panic attacks that night. They stopped after a few days. I still had anxiety about becoming a dad etc. Then last week my gf asked me to feel the baby kick and my body filled with adrenaline and I started panicking. I know deep down that I would love to be a father and I am looking forward to seeing my child etc. But I'm really struggling to stop the anxiety and the panic attacks when they come are terrible I worry about loosing my job and not being able to provide I worry about when my next attack will be. I feel so guilty on my gf as this time is purely about her and the baby so I fee selfish for feeling this way. I still live at home with my mum due to anxiety however I have saved allot of money over the years so I know we will be ok but anxiety convinces me that I won't cope. I know deep down I can do this even though it's not easy but the anxiety is clouding my thoughts and making me believe stupid things. The panic attacks are horrible and I have always avoided medication but I feel it is the last resort. Has anyone ever found relief from panic attacks with meds. I just don't want to take anything that will make it worse or make me an addict. We have a scan today and even though I have been to manny allready and been ok now since I had an attack last week the thought of the scan fills me with panic and I don't know why because I deep down want to go and see baby etc.
Any help will be greatly appreciated.
I am hoping someone might be able to help me.
I started having a panic attacks about 5 years ago it started when I cam home from work and went for a number 1 and when I finished I had the urge to go again and I did not know why so I had a huge panic attack. Since then I had a number of tests etc that showed I had nothing wrong with my bladder. After this I was afraid to go to places and I then went away for two days to Ireland and while I was over their I had a panic attack whilst in a restaurant which resorted in me booking a flight streight home. I new at this point we me withdrawing from going out etc I started to see a therapist and nearly £1000 later I still felt anxious but since that day two years ago I no longer had actual attacks just anxiety. Anyway 4 months ago I found out my gf is pregnant which imidiatly brought back the panic attacks that night. They stopped after a few days. I still had anxiety about becoming a dad etc. Then last week my gf asked me to feel the baby kick and my body filled with adrenaline and I started panicking. I know deep down that I would love to be a father and I am looking forward to seeing my child etc. But I'm really struggling to stop the anxiety and the panic attacks when they come are terrible I worry about loosing my job and not being able to provide I worry about when my next attack will be. I feel so guilty on my gf as this time is purely about her and the baby so I fee selfish for feeling this way. I still live at home with my mum due to anxiety however I have saved allot of money over the years so I know we will be ok but anxiety convinces me that I won't cope. I know deep down I can do this even though it's not easy but the anxiety is clouding my thoughts and making me believe stupid things. The panic attacks are horrible and I have always avoided medication but I feel it is the last resort. Has anyone ever found relief from panic attacks with meds. I just don't want to take anything that will make it worse or make me an addict. We have a scan today and even though I have been to manny allready and been ok now since I had an attack last week the thought of the scan fills me with panic and I don't know why because I deep down want to go and see baby etc.
Any help will be greatly appreciated.