helenhoo
13-09-16, 08:51
It's been almost three months since my brain tumour fear started again. It's been one that always crops back and i usually shrug it off and yet this time it's lingered. Any little twinge or ache or floater is a sign to me. I feel a bit nausea this morning (tumour) I had weird dream last night (tumour) I worry I walk to one side, I worry that when I'm in my own little world that this is a seizure. I feel like I'm worrying myself into having one. I know that sounds ridiculous. It's just draining for me.
Yes I have seen a doctor, yes I have an initial assessment with talking therapies (NHS) next week. But I want to be excited for my trip i just can't because I'm worried I'm undiagnosed with a darn illness. It's that horrible gut eating feeling.
---------- Post added at 08:51 ---------- Previous post was at 08:36 ----------
I got to laugh. I was getting ready and suddenly smelt bleach. Phantom smells, wah! Turns out I had sat on a cloth my mom had used to clean and it was on my trousers...
Yes I have seen a doctor, yes I have an initial assessment with talking therapies (NHS) next week. But I want to be excited for my trip i just can't because I'm worried I'm undiagnosed with a darn illness. It's that horrible gut eating feeling.
---------- Post added at 08:51 ---------- Previous post was at 08:36 ----------
I got to laugh. I was getting ready and suddenly smelt bleach. Phantom smells, wah! Turns out I had sat on a cloth my mom had used to clean and it was on my trousers...