LuLuLime
15-09-16, 22:39
18/M/black/no meds. So, I've developed a lot of weird symptoms over the past few months, that have come to a head over the last week and a half. In Mid may, a week before High School Graduation, I began to pluck my eyebrows in my sleep, and also developed twitching in my right eye. I proceeded to develop serious brain fog that comes and goes. In Mid July, I began become fatigued, my eyes had trouble focusing, I got dizzy upon standing, and occasionally, my limbs would seize up or go numb. I thought I had a brain tumor, but the CT showed nothing. The eyebrow plucking and numbness has gone away for the most part, but a week ago I started developing schizophrenia like symptoms. I see dark spots out of the corner of my eye, black spots or objects on the wall seem to move in my peripheral, translucent dots move around in lights when they're out of my FoV. I wake up in the middle of the night and can't seem to fall back asleep. I'm extremely depressed and anxious, and fans and vents freak me out because some sounds they make sound like breathing or whispering, making me think that I'm hallucinating. The visual issues and auditory stuff subsides when I concentration on something else. Anyway, this is causing me tremendous distress, depression and all that stuff. Sometimes I can relax a bit but essentially this is ruling my existence. I'm meeting a psych Tuesday but I don't know.
I've gone from waking up a few hours early to not getting any deep sleep at all, I close my eyes for what feels like a Lon time, then open them to see that its only been an hour. The occasional black dot or movement in my peripheral has turned into tiny translucent and black dot being seen on walls and in the air constantly. When I look at a patterned carpet, it looks like worms are moving under it, out of my FoV. Not like visible worms, but it moves around. When I look non directly at a light, it looks like little translucent dots are moving around in there. Still cant tell if Im hallucinating auditorially. Sometimes I hear breathing/whispering maybe? Can't tell if it's the vents, the pipes, maybe someone in the room? Lack of sleep is seriously effecting my performance in college. I believe my mental state is deteriorating rapidly and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. Ideas? Anyway, my symptoms all but clear up when I'm in deep focus or in a crowded room. I can't sleep, can't focus, having mini panic episodes. I went to a psych, but got no help.
I've gone from waking up a few hours early to not getting any deep sleep at all, I close my eyes for what feels like a Lon time, then open them to see that its only been an hour. The occasional black dot or movement in my peripheral has turned into tiny translucent and black dot being seen on walls and in the air constantly. When I look at a patterned carpet, it looks like worms are moving under it, out of my FoV. Not like visible worms, but it moves around. When I look non directly at a light, it looks like little translucent dots are moving around in there. Still cant tell if Im hallucinating auditorially. Sometimes I hear breathing/whispering maybe? Can't tell if it's the vents, the pipes, maybe someone in the room? Lack of sleep is seriously effecting my performance in college. I believe my mental state is deteriorating rapidly and there doesn't seem to be anything I can do about it. Ideas? Anyway, my symptoms all but clear up when I'm in deep focus or in a crowded room. I can't sleep, can't focus, having mini panic episodes. I went to a psych, but got no help.