serendipity1996
18-09-16, 01:36
Hello everyone,
I've always been a worrywart, however, over the past year and particularly over the past couple of months my anxiety has been greatly exacerbated to the point where I feel it's having a negative impact (and quite a significant one) on my quality of life. I started having panic attacks a few months ago for the first time in my life and since then I would say my anxiety has worsened. I have body dysmorphic disorder so already spend a great deal of time worrying about my appearance although it seems to be episodic but alongside this suffer from general anxiety, and it also seems likely that I have some form of health anxiety too. I'm constantly anxious that one day my body will spontaneously decide to just 'give up' and I will suffer multiple organ failure or something similarly drastic. Currently I am paranoid about hearing damage given I have very mild tinnitus.
I'm honestly at the point where I am quite apathetic about life overall. I wouldn't say I am clinically depressed or have suicidal thoughts but I feel numb when I think about the decades I have ahead of me...and I am only 20 so life is only just beginning. It seems like such a struggle to plough on when every day I have what seems like a tonne of worry to wake up to every day. I can't remember the last time I felt totally carefree and happy. I would love to wake up one day and live unburdened of any worry, and just live in the moment. I feel so worn down by anxiety already...what will it be like ten years from now.
I finally managed to pluck up the courage to visit my GP about my anxiety a few weeks ago but honestly didn't feel any better for it. He actually seemed quite dismissive so I am feeling pretty demoralised although I have been sent a link to online counselling/CBT.
Can anyone else relate? Just want to know that I'm not alone...
I've always been a worrywart, however, over the past year and particularly over the past couple of months my anxiety has been greatly exacerbated to the point where I feel it's having a negative impact (and quite a significant one) on my quality of life. I started having panic attacks a few months ago for the first time in my life and since then I would say my anxiety has worsened. I have body dysmorphic disorder so already spend a great deal of time worrying about my appearance although it seems to be episodic but alongside this suffer from general anxiety, and it also seems likely that I have some form of health anxiety too. I'm constantly anxious that one day my body will spontaneously decide to just 'give up' and I will suffer multiple organ failure or something similarly drastic. Currently I am paranoid about hearing damage given I have very mild tinnitus.
I'm honestly at the point where I am quite apathetic about life overall. I wouldn't say I am clinically depressed or have suicidal thoughts but I feel numb when I think about the decades I have ahead of me...and I am only 20 so life is only just beginning. It seems like such a struggle to plough on when every day I have what seems like a tonne of worry to wake up to every day. I can't remember the last time I felt totally carefree and happy. I would love to wake up one day and live unburdened of any worry, and just live in the moment. I feel so worn down by anxiety already...what will it be like ten years from now.
I finally managed to pluck up the courage to visit my GP about my anxiety a few weeks ago but honestly didn't feel any better for it. He actually seemed quite dismissive so I am feeling pretty demoralised although I have been sent a link to online counselling/CBT.
Can anyone else relate? Just want to know that I'm not alone...