bad night

[dale12345]

Not the greatest night. Found my ex boyfriends mom passed out on the bathroom floor, called 911 she might had a heart attack, anyways it wasnt hard because my 9 year old was with me. Pretty stressful.

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We are pretty close she is the only grandparent my daughter has. Hoping for the best.

[flipp]

Sorry to hear that,hope everything will be alright.:hugs:.
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[MyNameIsTerry]

That's one hell of a shock to confronted by. You handled it well, you took control over anxiety and did what you know you need too. Remember that when you are struggling, it proves you have greater inner strength than you realise and it's a major positive albeit one we would rather never need to have tested.

I hope she is ok, Beth, and I hope you & your daughter are coping with the trauma of it. It may hit you later, anxiety can be like that when you've pushed it aside to spring into action, but if it does know that you are safe and did what you had to and accept it as delayed shock like anyone could feel.

Everyone on here will support you when you need it. Hang in there.

:hugs::hugs::hugs::bighug1::flowers:

[dale12345]

Actually it turned out she has c. diff and I have to go get tested tomm because it might what has been causing the IBS, It can be serious so I hope we both are ok. She didnt have a heart attack but it can be serious. Thanks for your support

[dale12345]

Going to the Dr tomorrow is making me nervous because of my health anxiety, just hoping everything will be ok. OCD and Health Anxiety not fun. But I am trying to stay level headed.

[brucealmighty]

thats an awful thing to deal with but you`ve done it and should really step back and be proud of yourself. we all worry that we`re not good enough, or brave enough, and someone else should sort things out but when it came to it you did what you had to.
it would have shaken anyone so don`t feel bad at all, hope the doctor helps you tomorrow, take care

[dale12345]

I looked at teh back of my throat found a small bump , looked it up it is a sign of throat cancer, very very scared

[MyNameIsTerry]

Hi Beth,

Let a doctor be the judge of that. We get lumps in our throats due to many things.

My big brother had a lump and the biopsy was performed despite the consultant believing it to anything other than cancer. He was right, as we all knew he would be, as it turned out to just be a swollen nodule and they only removed it because it was causing pain.

And he'd been forcibly clearing his throat for over 20 years up to that point (several broken noses leading to a rhinoplasty and his nose partially collapsed again on the inside causing the issues with mucus he had before).

So, that's one example of non cancer. Remember, in the vast majority of even referrals to specialists, they don't turn out to be cancers. So, the odds are seriously in your favour that it will be something else.

I'm glad to hear your ex BF's mum hasn't had a heart attack. That's a massive relief. I'm sure they will get best sorted and hopefully you don't have it too. C.diff is very common from antibiotic treatment and very easily treated by switching them or starting one aimed at this infection.

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Beth,

I've seen a few threads about c.diff on here this year and two posters in particular have medical knowledge in this area. I've found one of the threads and I'm thinking this will give you some reassurance because across each thread they have always said c.diff is pretty unmistakable due to the foul smelling watery poo. I'm thinking you would have noticed this and been pretty unwell from what they say:

http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=176784

[dale12345]

I have all the signs
pain
hard type swalling
sore in back of throat
swollen glands
feeling of something stuck in throat
Bleeding from nose

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also used to smoke

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I am so scared?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[brucealmighty]

try to relax and read terrys last post again, let it really sink in that nothing might be wrong.

[dale12345]

I am trying but with my symptoms it is hard.

[brucealmighty]

the trouble is we all jump ten steps ahead in no time and its that critical few seconds to breathe and try our best to be logical that can make the difference

and by the way - I am mostly useless at doing this, I just know when you can manage it it really does help.

your symptoms might well be scary but try to wait until your doctor has had a look.

[dale12345]

Thanks

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I am trying

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Its jsut hard keep thinking of daughter growing up alone

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Well I am off wish me luck

[dale12345]

The dr said it is inflamed but not throat cancer Thats why the bump is there, sorry health anxiety rearing its ugly head,

[MyNameIsTerry]

There's need to apologise, Beth, this type of reaction is to be expected until you work through recovery and gain more strength to control it.

I'm glad it all went well. :hugs:

Perhaps talk in your therapy about this episode? Write down how you felt before, during & after. What have you learned from it. How would you like to be able to handle such flare ups in the future. For instance, you searched out a cancer diagnosis bit did you look for all other possibilities? So, next time what is a healthier strategy? And whether your recent trauma has been a catalyst of some kind or just weakened your defences.

[dale12345]

I really think I am going to go back in feel like crap, think the dr missed something.

[dale12345]

Think I need a second opinion or something

[MyNameIsTerry]

That's a classic HA issue. If the doctor was anything other than confident in their diagnosis, they would refer you off to check it out.

Since its an inflammation, how is it being treated? When the inflammation starts to reduce, that's going to prove it can't be what you feared because that would keep going.

So, can a waiting period be applied to allow treatment to do it's stuff and you see it improve?

Honestly, it took me ages to win that battle against the fear and learning to accept. It's of the hardest things to learn but it is possible. I found it took quite a long time for me and I still have my battles with some more ingrained elements but things are far better than when I was at my worst. Once you start seeing & feeling improvement you will feel less lost to it all and have more faith in yourself.

[dale12345]

I am going back to the Dr on Friday, yeah I know its not good for HA but still nervous.

[pulisa]

It's not a good idea to go back, Beth. Your therapist is right on this. It just feeds your HA because when will you be satisfied with the GP's opinion?

[dale12345]

I went to my phyc today I agree I am going back on Friday just because I think i need some antibiotics for this sinus infection, just wont go away. She agreed that might be a good idea. Feel more calm now.

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But I am also beginning to realize that its a sinus thing, not dying my HA just went nuts because I dont feel good, have to understand that doesn't mean death. I have terrible sinuss doesnt mean death just means I am sick. She wants me to start Pacsil but that worries me a little because after talking to the pharmacist it can cause stomach issues I have enough of those already. Will ask my dr on Friday.

[MyNameIsTerry]

Is that Paxil? If so, SSRI's can cause nausea and it can help to take them with food to reduce this. I found the nausea I had with both I've tried so far only lasted the first few days and it wasn't all the time.

I'm glad you've rationalised what is happening. It's ok to be triggered strongly until you work enough to move forward. Learning why this is happened and to spot when the spiral is starting is a step towards controlling your reactions and reducing the impact it has on you. It's progress as some can't see outside of their symptoms but you are and are accepting them. It's a step in the right direction.

If you think you need antibiotics, that's fair enough. The doctor may or may not prescribe them but it's important to move towards seeing a doctor for the right reasons and not being pushed to them out of fear. You ate accepting it's HA, you are just ill in some way and are not seriously ill as your HA is trying to tell you and that you are choosing to see a doctor to follow up on antibiotics. Choice is key, it's taking back control, it's empowerment, you are not being driven out of fear.